I can’t cope

Your diamond art is beautiful @Captain24 😀

Thanks @Shaz51

Hi @Captain24

That artwork is so great!

I'm glad it kept you calm. How are you going today?

Hanami

Thanks @hanami it was so much help to keep the mania at a manageable level.

Im feeling a little raw and exposed after the psychiatrist visit yesterday and telling her about some of my childhood.

Im not really sure where I’m at. Its like I’m on the edge. Im not sure if I’m about to go back up or go down. I just have to live in the moment and see what happens.

Hope you are having a great day!

That feeling of being on the edge must be awful. I hope it evens out soon for you. My really close friend has a diagnosis of bipolar and often tells me about this feeling. I'm seeing her tomorrow as long as she's all ok.

Are there any other types of craft or art you like to do? My daughter and I have tried just about everything under the sun. She's my youngest. She loved craft right from an early age. We've done felties, knitting, watercolour painting, calligraphy, jewellry making with clay, collage....haha

Hanami ❤️

It is hard @hanami. It doesn’t take much to fall off. I was trying to make my front yard look good. But my parents just came and knew better now it’s a mess. They have tipped me to the wrong side. Now I have to work to bring myself back before I go to far.

I wish they would get their own lives and stop interfering in mine. It’s their fault I’m in this MI mess.

Sorry I’m just really angry right now.

Oh no @Captain24 . Some parents have a lot to answer for don't they. I know that feeling of having a parent make you so angry.

Sending you hugs

Hanami ❤️

I so angry I really want to throw back at them what we got. The hate and never wanting to see us again. @hanami

But I am a better person than that.

Yep, I've had that anger. But yep you are a better person than that. But it does feel good to verbalise those things you are thinking. My husband is my sounding board for the anger I sometimes feel towards my mum. I just go off!!! I rant and rave, swear etc. Then I'm done and can move on (mostly). If I have no one to listen too, I tell my dogs haha.

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I have an absolutely fantastic nurse! @hanami. I sent her an email venting and she called. She has bought me back up to that edge but slightly to the good side. So and now I just have to keep balanced.