I can’t cope

I know, and that wasn't okay. You didn't deserve to be treated that way @Captain24, ever. 💛

Yes, of course - take your time. This isn't an easy exercise, I am challenging you a bit here, but I am hoping it will help with some reframing, self-compassion, and gentle intention-setting. ☺️

Cap @Captain24 , you home?

No I was at work and I am tonight. @tyme

Can you ppllleeeaassee tag me when you’re on on Friday?

My brothers girlfriend is going through some stuff and she is a borderline so I’d like some advice and also how to help my poor brother who’s copping the brunt of it.

Cap @Captain24 , I'll do my best. There's been a change in shifts as of today so I'm not working on Friday.

Before I hear too much, PLEASE remember to have a think about your boundaries with your brother. I know you have a BIG heart and you want to help, but I'd encourage you to remember yourself too. Of course I'm not saying that you don't help him, but have a think about what you can and can't do.

I really hope your brother is okay. If he has any specific questions, please ask away. Just remember that I'm only sharing what I know from my own experience and research. I can't speak for everyone who has BPD.

But I'd love to help out.

Hope you are okay.

Thinking about you.

Hi @Captain24,

How are you feeling?

It's your last day of work today, right? 💛☺️

Hi @AuntGlow.

How are you?

I’ve just woken up. Yes, I have finished now for a month. Today is always a bit of a right off. It’s hard to function.

Im still lying in bed as I don’t want to disturb the dogs.

I'm well! Very busy week in my world, performing in a dance show on the weekend - so just prepping for that! @Captain24

I understand. You don't need my permission to rest, but I really want to encourage and support you in taking the day slow.

Awww little cuties. Are you comfy or wishing you could move around? haha

I miss performing! @AuntGlow. For someone with severe social phobia, I was always able to get up on stage. What’s your performance if you are able to share.

I had to get them lunch so I got up. But I lay there not moving so that they are comfortable. You should see some of the angles I have to sleep in.

While i was sleeping, pix and Jett ran out of my room barking and carrying on. I get up and here is lunch in my kitchen bench. Mum came in and I had no idea. It was only an hour ago!

I do have to be careful today. I do need to go grocery shopping at some stage as I don’t want to face the crowds tomorrow but it’s really busy on Friday's too. Not sure I have the strength for people or dealing with finding a car park.

Feeling really fat and lazy. I’ve just gotten back into bed as I don’t want to face the day. I’m not able to distract myself at all. I can’t focus on anything.

I know! I am such a nervous wreck before and after, but in the moment I feel SO free.

This response tells me that performing is something you're really aligned with @Captain24. Can you imagine yourself performing again?

It's a Broadway Jazz style routine, very camp and silly. hehe

Oh I can imagine!

Aww, that is so sweet. What did she bring you?

I understand, sometimes it's all too overstimulating...

I know you mentioned not feeling so good about yourself today and finding it hard to focus, that really must be a lot. I have many days like this too. I think it's harder when I put heaps of pressure on myself to show up in a certain way. What would it be like to really be where you're at and allow yourself to show up to things imperfectly? 💛