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I can’t cope

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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Yeah. The feels like is 4.5 but no wind @tyme

It was kinda ok. I was busy in the middle of the day so that passed time quickly.

Mum and dad took the dogs for a walk today. When we still had Angel, there was a part of the river that they would swim in. Well Keiko went down to look at the water (she won’t get in) dad took Pix down and she went straight into the water. So she had a swim in hers and Angels spot today for her birthday! Kinda feels a little special thing from Angel.

How are you feeling today?

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Glad to hear work was okay and that it relevatively fast @Captain24

That's so amazing that the dogs had a special day today. That's so special.

They know it's Angel's special place.

I'm faring actually pretty well considering. The facilitator emailed me back and said I should've told her early on when she first checked in with me...

In the end, I just left it @Captain24

What's your wind down strategy for tonight?

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That’s so frustrating @tyme. I guess emailing her back isn’t going to get you anywhere. She is set with her opinion.

Did you get everything done today? Doctors, optometrist?

I had a shower when I got home and put my Oodie warming pj’s on.

I had no motivation to do dinner but my GP’s words about never having motivation were in my head so I made myself get up and have something. I wasn’t going to add veggies as I couldn’t be bothered but I did in the end!

Now just watching tv thinking it’ll be bedtime soon but I’ve only just taken my meds. Oops.

Are you ready to facilitate your training session tomorrow?

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So sorry! @Captain24 I got caught up. My niece had a sensitive moment. I might take her out for brekkie tomorrow or just a hot choc.

This morning, I saw the doc, got prescriptions for vaccines, got a blood test, saw the optometrist, ordered 2 pairs of glasses, went to church for the youth group thing, then I rested up before going on the forums.

I guess you are working tomorrow?

My presso is not until next week Tuesday.

Sorry I missed chatting to you tonight. So so sorry.

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It’s all good. @tyme. She needed you and that’s what aunts are for and you two are especially close.

Oh sorry I thought it was tomorrow. Still have time to prepare. 😜

Yeah I’m at work tomorrow but I’ll be around from 8

We can chat tomorrow

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Yes please! Looking forward to it.

Please rest up my friend @Captain24

The poor girl is so upset. She annoys me to much, but she's won my heart over....

Hugs @Captain24

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hey @Captain24! how are you going? got much planned for the weekend?

i've had some changes to my work timings so i might not see your reply till next week but i hope you're doing well 💗

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Hey @Captain24 , I know you're not on until later but I'll be around.

Hope you're okay.

Took the kiddos to the library for a few hours and then we had starbucks because my niece has been asking for ages. So at least I can tick that off the list.

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I’m going ok @rav3n thank you for checking! I appreciate it.

My weekend plans are 3 nightshifts in the extreme cold!

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Taking them to the library sounds good. Did they have any school holiday things in? @tyme

I realised a lot today. I’m actually feeling ok. Mentally. I also noticed that I’ve been talking to myself a lot more. Not necessarily positive self talk but more sensible self talk. If that makes sense.

I went to an event at work today and was late getting there so I missed the start and I think it was probably important. But what the lady said was interesting. I think she had self image issues. She has Alepcia (sorry don’t know how to spell it!) so she is bald. She now embraces it and walks around proudly with no hair. She was all about giving things a try. She runs 4 businesses and is making a killing. All her business were cheap start ups that she has grown. She was really inspiring to listen to. If she is feeling low she allows herself a day to wallow in it and then has to move on the next day. She was so confident and positive. It was really good.

I’ve hurt my neck today. It was like my head and neck bounced and pushed my spine downwards. It’s pretty sore. I had to catch the bus from the pit to the log off point. I got out and half rolled my ankle when I reached the ground. I didn’t fall but I stumbled a little and now it’s throbbing.

It’s freezing cold here. The wind is like ice. There must be snow around. Mum said it rained in town. We have a really bid event in this weekend. Like 20000+ people will go through the gate. So it always rains this weekend. Even in the drought! If for some reason it doesn’t rain it’s icy cold!

Anyway.. how are you?

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