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I can’t cope

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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LOL. @Captain24 . My brain is confuzzled. I'm usually very regimented with my routine, but all these changes, and the kids being on holz has totally thrown me out. I have to take a day at a time.

No, the training is not for new mods. It's for a different program. I think I have to do that later where I train new mods. Other mods have done some training with the new mods, but I haven't yet. We all work together.

As for workiing on Sunday, I thought I'd just have a break, so I'm taking the next two Sundays off (I think - for now anyway).

So you add rice to the rissoles? That's so interesting. I might try fish cakes first, then I may do rissoles too. But prawn and pork dumplings first. Who knows? I'm probably not end up doing anything!

What I don't like about cooking in batches is that living alone means you smell the stuff all the time and it turns you off eating them. How many rissoles do you make at a time? Do you freeze them?

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Stuffing up your routine must be difficult for you @tyme. I understand why your brain is confuzzled. Just wake up in the morning and make a routine for that day?

It sounds like an awesome team that you work with. Everyone working together.

Do you still have heaps of leave you need to burn through? I think it’s a well deserved break. I won’t miss you this week as I’ll be at work anyway but I will next Sunday.

Yeah. Rice. It’s kinda like making meatballs but into rissoles. My great-aunt taught mum how to make them. So I just do whatever works. I’m not sure how many it will make as I only got a small packet of mince. I’m hoping it’s enough to get me through 5 days plus I will also have silverside and baked veggies to alternate meals between dinner and lunch. Im trying to cook different proteins for each meal and different veggies. The smell hasn’t been too bad.

Just had a scare with Jett. I think his trachea just collapsed. He couldn’t breathe very well and couldn’t swallow. I calmed him down and massaged his throat. He seems ok now. I think it’s something I’m going to have to watch.

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Huh???? How can his trachea just 'collapse'??? What the? That's so freaky! I hope he's okay. I know you said he didn't really eat yesterday, and now this? Awwwww. What a scare. I pray he is okay. @Captain24

Does that mean you will eat 5 days worth of rissoles?

As for my routine, I plan it the night before so I know exactly what I'm doing the next day. So for tomorrow:

- training

- coffee

- spend time with kids

- forums

- assignment

- bed

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It’s a general thing with chihuahuas. @tyme. Their trachea just collapses. It’s like it squeezes shut. Pix doesn’t have much of a problem with it but I think Jett is going too. If it keeps happening I’ll have to take him to the vet for X-rays. He can to me for help. It was kinda sweet. He is fine now!

Yes 5 days of rissoles and 5 days of corned beef. It’s the way it is with work. I’m not cooking every night to take something different!

I like the planned day. At least you are ready to go.

Im guessing you’re about to head off.

Thanks for tonight. I don’t know if you can feel it in my posts but I am more relaxed.

Thank you!

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Speak next time @Captain24

Good night

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I just wanted to stop by and say goodnight, I will respond to you more tomorrow @Captain24 💛

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I just saw your post before. I didn't know that about chihuahuas at all. I know you mentioned something around not having a collar because of that... I didn't realise it was so serious! @Captain24

5 days of ANY food is enough to turn me off! I hope you will be okay with it. Maybe you and your parents have to swap food lol.

Anyway, I'm off now. Goodnight!

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I know it’s not much but I have just bathed both dogs but the biggest thing is I just had a shower and washed my hair! I haven’t washed it in 2 weeks.

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Showers are a huge effort captain. And washing our hair is even bigger. I go weeks.

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It is a massive effort @Bow. But I’ve done it and a few other things as well.

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