I can’t cope

Jett ended up eating last night, he didn’t eat lunch but had a lot of hot chips and cake! @tyme

Im waiting a bit for dinner as I don’t think Pix is ready.

Yeah. Keiko has gotten a lot better. She has a lot of fun with life though.

How was your day? Or have you just popped in?

I’ve just taken prn and I don’t normally take it.

My anxiety is getting out of control and turning more back to paranoia.

I feel like I’m being watched.

I tried to reach out to a friend and got no response. Maybe I am unwanted

How is anxiety sitting with you now @Captain24?

Aww I can imagine!!

That's a good grounding exercise. Are you working tonight or is it a self-care evening? 💛

I just posted above @AuntGlow.

Im at home

Ello @Captain24 , I'm back.

Hey @tyme

So you really are around!

Im starting to feel paranoid. I reach out to a friend and never heard back. I feel unwanted.

Do you have plans for the school holidays or do you have too much work in?

Yes, I'm back for a little bit @Captain24

I hear you FEEL unwanted. The reframe is, "I FEEL unwanted but my friend may just be busy tonight." I hope you can keep training your brain to have these reframes as I'm mindful that the more you train it the 'other' way, the stronger that will become.

I'm sorry you feel a little paranoia tonight. I hope that eases for you.

You parents came for Pix's bday. Anyone else? Sorry if you've already shared it.

I've been busy all day today. I was out on a training session this morning... the facilitator pulled me aside and asked why I looked so disengaged... I felt so bad, but honestly speaking, it was my ADD. I zoned out.

Tomorrow, I have another training session that I'm not looking forward to.

Then next week, I am running a training session.

Um... I told my niece I'm not going to take her to Sydney because there's no point only flying there for 3 days, then coming back because I've booked to see Annie the musical.

I don't know what else this holz. We're booked to go camping next holidays, then overseas at the end of the year.

I got another invitation to go to the US in November, but I haven't accepted it yet because I've got tickets to go away in December....

So much in my brain!

Anyway, enough from me.

What are you up to?

Yeah I was just mum and dad @tyme. I couldn’t deal with any more than that. It’s hard enough trying to wrangle 3 dogs!

Sorry about my reframe.

Did you end up getting the assessment done for adhd?

Training sessions can be hard. I zone out a lot so when I’m having any of my appointments I have a squishy to help keep me focused.

Is the training for SANE or for elsewhere?

You sound so busy.

Sounds like you have plenty of stuff for the other school holidays and the musical this one. I can see the reason for not flying to Sydney.

The trip to the US is it for the same thing?

I’ve done a heap of housework today but went and had a nap when it got to the ironing pile in my list! 😂

I still have a heap to do tomorrow like bath the dogs, make rissoles and prepare healthy meals for lunch and dinner while I’m working. This eating healthy thing is so hard. It takes planning.

Yeah... so much to do! I just want a break soon 🙂 @Captain24

No need to be sorry about the reframe. We are here to help each other. It took me years to be able to do it. This is only the beginning.

I half did the ADHD assessment. I need to go back, but I've put it on hold for now. I pretty much have ADD, so the next is a medication discussion. That's the part I'm waiting on.

Two training sessions are outside SANE. One training session that I'm delivering is within SANE.

The next trip to the US is to present a research paper I've been working on. I'm part of a team, so even if I dont' go, it's okay. Someone else will present it. So it's a totally different trip to the last US trip.

I'm glad you got a lot of housework done today. I've barely been home!

Did I mention I was supposed to have coffee with an ex colleague this afternoon, but her car rego got cancelled, so she couldn't make it. So I'm going with different people tomorrow after training.

I'll be on here later in the evening tomorrow too.

With rissoles, what do you put in them? I'm thinking to make fish cakes for the kids at some point, and also some dumplings. This is all in my head for now... I'll let you know if I make them!

When's your next work day?

Would you slow down if you had a break though? @tyme.

Ahh.. so you know what you are dealing with. I hope it helps you understand yourself a little better. I guess the medication can wait a bit. You’ve already been dealing with it all your life!

That’s cool that it’s your research paper. That must mean it’s really influential.

Is the SANE on for the new mods?

That’s a shame about coffee. At least you can do it tomorrow. I hope it works out for you.

I put hamburger helper as it has spices and stuff, I grate a potato, grate a carrot and chop so onion. I also add cooked rice and an egg to bind it. So it’s a little more than mince!

Is this why you aren’t on on Sunday? I’m on nightshift then anyway.

I go back to work on Wednesday and Thursday dayshift then Friday, Saturday, Sunday nightshifts.