I can’t cope

Hahaha @Captain24 . I'd be too scared I'd squash them!

I get paranoid when I'm sleeping with my niece. I think my pillow will smother her or something...

Phew, and least she came over and took her pillow home today. It's a school night so she's back at hers.

The two of them are so different @AuntGlow. Pix is happy to be on her own most of the time. Jett has to always be near me.

I don’t think anyone would really notice if I went. Only my parents because they would have to look after my dogs

I do roll on him sometimes but I wake up and he growls at me @tyme!

I do sleep better without them though!

A few nights of comfy sleep.

I was only thinking of your sleep the other day. Do you still sleep in the floor?

Nah, I haven't slept on the floor in months now...wait... actually, when it was really hot and my niece insisted she be in my bed, I got annoyed because I was too hot, then I migrated to the floor. That was only in Feb-March this year. Quite a few time actually @Captain24

But no, I haven't been on the floor since it's been cold.

And yes, I agree... having your own bed is THE BEST! No kids, no dogs...

But one thing, even when I'm in my own bed, I still stick on one side...you?

Both dogs sleep on my side of the bed. @tyme. The more I move over so do they. But yes I sleep on one side of the bed. I just get to spread out instead of being at some weird angle

Hahaha.. like me too @Captain24

Anyway, I'm going to bed. I'll see you later this week.

Take care!

Thanks for tonight @tyme

Enjoy your bed and sleep well

Talk soon

3rd load of washing in the machine

Bed linen changed

kitchen cleaned

ensuite cleaned

Now waiting for my psych appointment. I feel really miserable and praying that I don’t cry. I don’t want to do this. What am I suppose to tell her? That life just sucks. Sorry this isn’t recovery focused. You can just delete it and ban me

Hey @Captain24 it sounds like you've been having a busy morning so far!

I've also been trying to get on top my washing this morning since it's not raining here for the first time in a few days.

It's okay to not know what you're going to say to your psych. What time is the appointment?

It’s really drizzly here so it’s all hanging inside or going in the dryer. @Ru-bee

So much for not knowing what to say.. we went 15 minutes overtime!

We talked about my mood and that I have possible SAD. We talked about how lonely I am but can’t reach out. We talked about how much that loneliness can hurt. Her thesis that she is doing is on loneliness!

I have to drop anchor a couple of times a day. I have to notice what I am thinking and feeling. I have to notice when the loneliness happens. What has happened during the day to feel that way. What has happened when it gets so bad it hurts.

T/W SH

We talked about passive SI. We talked about my extreme SH thoughts. Extreme in the intensity of the pain I want to inflict.

Im tired and drained right now but I still have to go shopping for work tomorrow and get fuel.