I can’t cope

Yeah okay, one of those days @Captain24 I'm glad that you were able to stay in today

I'm doing okay, not a heap going on over here.

Are you feeling like staying in bed is keeping you safe at the moment? Is the anything that the forums can do to support you through the rest of the day?

I am sadly just about to be finished for the day, but lots of others are still about 💜

I don’t think there is anything anyone can do @Ru-bee

Yes my bed is safe. it’s the best I’ve got.

Have a good night.

Im not sure anyone is around but that’s ok. It doesn’t matter

I just need some space but both dogs feel the need to be on me. They won’t leave me alone. I’m doing my best to not yell at them. It’s not their fault I’m horrible. I hate myself for it.

I’m not sure if anyone is following along or even cares. I don’t blame anyone.

It’s a real struggle right now. It’s mood not withdrawal. I think anyway.

I’ve taken my meds which was challenging. I’m hoping that they kick in soon.

Yo, what's happening @Captain24 ?

I didn’t think you were around until late tonight @tyme

Just feeling really really down today. Im struggling with doing anything. I’m too tired. I’m too exhausted. I’ve got nothing.

How are you going?

I'm a bit everywhere.

Also, should let you know, tomorrow, we have a whole of org (SANE) conference all day so I won't be on. @Tolly our counsellor will be holding the fort and well as someone else.

I'm sorry that today is tough. Do you keep a record of your mood to see if there are any trends?

Thanks for the heads up @tyme

I don’t know this @Tolly person so I’m a bit unsure. I hope it’s an awesome day for you though. I use to love conferences when I went many moons ago.

I don’t keep a mood diary but I really should. I need to make it a habit.

My meds have knocked me for six. So if I stop talking it’s means I’ve fallen asleep not anything else.

Speaking of meds, I can't even remember if I took mine... @Captain24 I'm so bad with meds...

I hope the new day is better for you. I'm not sure if you find that sometimes, you can go to bad feeling so crap, but wake up totally okay too. (I'm also aware that sometimes you can also wake up feeling crap too).

I used to have a mood diary, but I never followed through with it. However, I use 'cycle tracking' on my phone and the trends are so amazing... I never thought I was 'regular' until started tracing data. So I'm thinking it can be similar for moods. I used to use a mood app and you can write notes to see if it was hormone related, diet related or sleep related.

Hope Pix and Jett are giving you some peace. I've got a niece next to me because she is not going to school tomorrow. They have school camp but she didn't go.

I’m not sure that I should be on here. It’s really daunting. I feel like I don’t belong and I’m really unsure of myself.

I started today ok. I’ve done two loads of washing, ironed all my work clothes and half of the rest of the ironing pile. The pile was huge. I couldn’t hold onto that pace. I have so much to do but just fell backwards. Now I’m back in bed with Pix and Jett curled up with me. I can’t face anymore. My psych said I shouldn’t go back to bed as it’s avoidance and it’s not the best thing to for me to do. I’m letting her down by being here but I just can’t do anything else.

Im a failure. I’m useless. I’m stupid. I’m nothing.