I can’t cope

@ArraDreaming hey man, some TWs can probs be added pretty easily
Was thinking on that my own self - alas got distracted before I could get round to it

Don’t worry. Forget about it. Forget about me. I’m done

@Captain24 it is hard when it's been conditioned since childhood hey, but you CAN unlearn those things!! It'll just take time!!

Also, no wonder these perspectives of thinking you're unworthy/not good enough are so ingrained when you literally lower yourself every time anyone else enters a room. That's like.... nth level manipulation, I am so sorry you copped that.

Oh that's clever, to get more sparse bushes!! Maybe some bonsai, moss or succulent babies eh? I'm not biased towards these plants or anything, no no 😅

I’ve got a long way to go @Jynx

That’s why when people say ‘you are worthy’ I know that I’m not. It’s like I’m beneath everyone.

I don’t know what I’ll plant yet. I need to give myself some time to work out no snake options.

I seem to be a problem here tonight so I’ll just go. Keep everyone else happy.

Thank you but I think I’m done.

Sent you an email @Captain24 💜

@tyme Are you around? I don’t want to stay long but I’ve got something I want to tell you.

Yes yes! I am soooo far behind! Tell me @Captain24 ! I wanna know.

Hope you're okay. I'm just catching up on the hundreds of posts since I've been off.

Tell me. I'm all ears.

I’ve been nominated to be the peer support champion of our crew at work. I do training Wednesday and Thursday this week @tyme

This sounds stupid, but I'm crying happy tears @Captain24 !

It is TOTALLY your role. It's perfect for you.

In a way, I feel that as you delve into it more, you can consolidate parts of it in your own life.

That's what happened to me. I wasn't REOVERED when I started peer work. Recovery came with it.

However, it's also important to know your boundaries.

So so so proud of you!

It’s not that exciting!! 😂 @tyme

I don’t really know what it entails other than I’m someone that work mates in need can come too. I don’t think anyone will so it’s probably a title of nothing. But who knows. I’ll be there is anyone wants too.

Boundaries is a big thing but I am slowly getting there with them. My best friend came around the other day and I had a wall up so I didn’t take on her stuff but I was still available. Also my psych said to write a letter to her (not give it to her) to get the things she said out. But I didn’t need to. I will remember that for when or if I need it.

Im not working Tuesday night so I made an extra appointment with my psych. I’ll have to tell her around my exposure therapy. Oh and I hate exposure therapy!!!!