I can’t cope

Yeah they did @tyme and got me bread rolls to put them on. They knew that I couldn’t do it so they did it for me. They also got me hot cross buns. I’m pretty lucky. As much as they hurt me and cause me so much angst they do also do a lot for me.

Sorry I know you don’t do Easter. So I should respect that and keep it to myself. Sorry.

I’m at work on Saturday night so I won’t see you u til Tuesday @Jynx

Have a good night

Hey @Captain24 , don't be sorry. I don't have anything against people celebrating Easter. It's not an offence to me or anything. I go to church tomorrow too, but just not under the hat of Easter I guess?

You're more than welcome to share as much as you want!

And yes, I can't totally gather that as annoying as your parents can be, they do a lot too... just like a lot of parents? LOL- my mum talking AT me for 3 hours lol

I just really should be more respectful of others @tyme

They are pretty good and do think of me.

Hows the school holidays going?

Yeah, I guess it's good to acknowledge any differences between people just to clarify. But totally, no issues with you talking to me about Easter at all. @Captain24

I'm so done with the eldest. She's in my bed now and as high as the hills. Totally ADHD, over tired and bouncing off walls. She NEEDS to go back to school.

That sounds so full on @tyme. I really don’t know how you can do it.

My best friend was telling me how much of a handful her son is. He has adhd and level 2 autism!

Does she go better following a routine?

I think most people do much better with routine @Captain24 . It may seem restrictive, but it provides a sense of security as well.

At least when they are at school, they know which days they have swimming, piano, church etc.

Tonight, she is just majorly overtired. She had a playdate and was out from 9:30am to 8:30pm... she came home, showered, did some maths (we make her do it) and then she hopped into my bed. She wants to read but I'm not letting her. She wants to listen to an audiobook, but I'm not letting her because she absolutely buzzing. So I'm working on teaching her mindfulness skills with breathing etc.

Oh, and the reason she has to do maths is because she is soooooo bad at maths! She's in year 4, and she's just not numbers inclined - at all.

I think I told you that she gives her change away because she said she can't buy anything with all the change. So I told her when you put the change together, it adds up so you can buy something. Her response? "Nah, that's too much maths for my brain!"

That’s a long day!! No wonder she is overtired @tyme. I’m guessing she really doesn’t know what she wants right now.

Teaching her mindfulness sounds good. Starting at a young age gives her skills for the future.

A random question. Have you tried teaching her maths in a different way to school? Maybe counting the change with her and letting her see that it does add up? Maybe maths in the outside world. I’m not really sure but maybe something she can relate to more.. tell me if I’ve overstepped

We just make her do basic addition, subtraction, multiplication, and division.

She can do all the 'world' maths but just can't be bothered. She's really relaly lazy.

The issue with her is that she picked up literacy so so early in life. It was so easy for her. She taught herself to read by 2.5-3 years old. She just picked up words herself.

Whereas maths, she actually has to put effort in and that's why she hates it.

Lol, before intervention, she barely knew how to count properly. She could rote count but there was no number sense at all. At least she has number sense now.

The maths work is more to get her brain going. @Captain24 If I speak to her using real-world maths, she's fine.

You have defo not over stepped the mark. I just don't want to bore you with details of her laziness.

Thank GOD! She is now asleep!

Let me know how your Friday goes tomorrow. I'll be at church, but I'll be around in the evening.

See you then, tyme

I’ve taken my meds and gotten into bed. I’ve done pretty ok today. I was worried about being late to work but I just made a joke of it when I got there as the office staff were. They didn't make me feel bad just bagged me out. I didn’t fell overly self conscious.

I coped with being corrected, I didn’t get all anxious so that was good. Maybe the med change is starting to work.. I don’t know.

But now that my day is done my ‘bucket of shit’ is starting to overflow. I’m starting to feel distressed again. Not as bad but it’s there and it’s happening. It’s feeling really overwhelming. I have a sense of dread around me. I just need to get this out. I don’t want to end up in the same state I was in. I don’t want to cry for an hour and a half. Hopefully just putting it into the universe gives me some kind of peace. Here is different to journaling. I know no one is around to read it. That’s ok.