I can’t cope

I think I’m to agitated for sleep @tyme but the safest place for me to be is bed.

I was just doing the steps while looking at the moon eclipse. Arms are hard to add in which is way I try and teach arms with steps. But muscle memory will kick in!

Hope you sleep well tonight!

Thank you for the chat. I have missed our chats.

Good point! Teach arms WITH steps! I never thought of that @Captain24 ! You're an incredible teacher! I hope you find a way to teach your friend.

And yes, I've certainly missed our chats. Will definitely speak soon 🙂

I’m feeling really flat and down today. I don’t want to do anything other than curl up in a ball and forget I exist.

Why even exist in a world that doesn’t need me or want me

Heya @Captain24, what's going on for you today?

I feel like we haven't spoken in a while because I haven't been on the forums so much. It's nice to talk again ❤️

Good to see you @Former-Member.

Hope all has been well with you.

Something came up yesterday with my nurse about my mum and it’s opened a can of worms. 37 years later and it reminded me of how I was hated, not good enough and not wanted. She was always happy that I would run off and cry when she said it. It’s taken me right back there.

Just boiled the jug if you want a cuppa and scone @Captain24 @Former-Member

count me in @Eve7! How ya going?

I might have a cold something though. It's quite warm today!

Also wondering if @creative_writer wants a cuppa?

hey @Captain24. I think I understand what you're feeling, but let me know if I don't have it!

It sounds like the thoughts and feelings from when you were younger are coming up again? I imagine that's pretty rough! I know there are a few folks here who experience similar things here, and it sounds pretty understandable given something has reminded you of it.

Do you want to talk about what it's like?

I know what it's like for me when this happens, but not sure if it's the same for you. I kinda have thoughts going round-and-round in my head, sometimes I can see scenes play out. It kinda makes my body tense up and I get knots in my tummy. For me, I find it useful to break the cycle a bit by moving to a different room or writing my thoughts down (so they're out of my head!). Is there something you've done before when these thoughts have come up?

BIIIGGG virtual hug ❤️

I am just about to be visited by the acute care team @Former-Member Trying to hold my sh#t together.