I can’t cope

Ach yeah soooo much to be juggling in one day @Captain24!!

Do you want to see this pdoc for ADHD or is it just more generally?

Ach I know that feeling. Makes me feel back in high school again, "Why didn't you do your homework?!" blech. BUT I'm sure it'll be fine. Maybe you can have a think about what the main barriers were for being able to engage with these things she wanted you to do, and discuss that?

Deep breaths hun! They're powerful 😋

I don’t have one so I just need a general but my psych recommended this clinic as it’s where she goes. So I guess I’ll find out tomorrow if she does more than ADHD. My psych believes a diagnosis and meds may help with everything else that’s going on. Plus she wants my meds reviewed.

I just feel like a failure. It’s been a while since I’ve seen her. But it’s a really hard to do what she asks. If I tell her that I’m drinking some water. She tells me I need to drink more. She always has to push. Maybe after a break this appointment won’t be so bad. She is really lovely and does a checkin with me at the start of every appointment. I really like her.

Sorry I’m rambling.

Nervous energy I think. I’m so fidgety. So unable to explain.

Honestly yeah darlin, if ADHD is part of this picture, the meds would help soooo much @Captain24 - the brain fog lift alone!! All my fingies and toesies are crossed for ya!!

Maybe at the start of the appt you could express that you're feeling a bit vulnerable and also feeling really bad about not doing the things - if she knows you're feeling a bit sensitive about it (which is SO valid) it might help her in how she addresses stuff with you 😉

Pish posh, this isn't a ramble!! You've seen me ramble!! You're so fine 😋

Aye makes sense!! Very big day tomorrow. I am gonna be heading off soon so I should probably say nighty night!! I will be thinking of ya, sending you all my fortitude tomorrow, and hopefully catch you in the evening 💜

Thanks @Jynx. I hope you have a goodnight and a good day tomorrow

Just because my life isn’t hard enough right now. Too many appointments, to much mentally, to much riskiness, to much everything.

I ordered a gas bottle the other day. It hasn’t arrived and now I have no gas. No cooktop and now hot water. So no cooking and no shower. I can’t order until after my appointment so it won’t get delivered tomorrow. I know first world problems but it just adds to everything

Can life throw anything else at me?

Arghhhh... sorry, I was away from the computer for a sec... you know how I said I wasn't feeling well and I haven't been feeling well for a while? I think I've got shingles.

I've got a rash around me... arghhh..

Anyway, back to you. I'm sorry it's so hard.

At this stage, do you think work will act as a good distraction for you? As hard as it is, I'm thinking you may need it as a distraction if you can get there safely.

Oh @Captain24 , it's such a worry. I hope things get better.

Huh @Captain24 ?? Do you use a gas bottle to cook?

Is it because you live so far out?

Oh no. Apparently shingles is really painful @tyme. I hope it’s not.

It hasn’t really been distracting me. My brain has been shutting down while I’m there. I lost nearly 3 hours one night and even managed to have crib through the middle of it and not remember. So it’s becoming a concern.

It’s just all too much. I was cooking pasta when the gas cut out. I’m glad my appointments are Telehealth as I can’t shower. I can’t use the dishwasher. I can’t wash my dishes. I’m so stupid. I should’ve known when they didn’t send me an invoice. I cook with gas and use gas for hot water. We don’t have natural has out here.

I just can’t cope right now. I don’t have anything left in me. I feel sick. I can’t do it. I hate life.

That can really throw a spanner in the works @Captain24 .

I didn't realise you need gas for pretty much everything! If I could take you out for a cuppa, and company, I would!

Hugs @Captain24

Are you finding you are really not liking work now? What's your instinct?

Oh, and @Captain24 , I had an appointment through the app today. Then I have another in 2 week's time @Captain24