I can’t cope

Not bad! Tired, silly Jynxy didn't get enough sleep! What's today held in store for our dear @Captain24 ?

Hopefully you sleep better tonight. Being tired is the pits @Jynx

I did 2 loads of washing, that are still on the line. Sat on the lounge and then went to bed to sleep. My kitchen is a mess and I have to clean it before I go to bed.

Mentally well people don’t usually sleep all day.

Lost my tab again @Captain24 I swear some days are just more chaotic than others hey. But I found ya! Oh I bet the lack of sleep is why the chaos is extra pointy today hey 🙃

Ugh kitchen cleaning! The worssssst! Just dishes?

I mean, mentally well people also don't have to expend anywhere near as much energy just to keep their heads above water. I bet if they did, they'd need a whole day in bed too!

No not just dishes. I do have to unpack the dishwasher to repack it. But you can’t see the benches for rubbish and shopping. @Jynx

How are you going with the decluttering and doing the dishes?

My Pdoc in hospital said we need more sleep than the average Joe.

Im having some serious urges but that’s all I can say. Need to appear to be ok.

@Captain24 haha yeah open bench space is like, prime real estate in my house, doesn't last long!!

Dishes not bad! Definitely not every night but if I held myself to that standard too tightly I'd constantly fail/let myself down so I am just telling myself 'most nights' and that helps!! The decluttering has been on pause while partner is away, I really do fare a lot better when I have someone there to keep me on task (and not just getting lost in my stuff like 'Ooh haven't seen this in years!'). Now I got a house inspection coming up so kinda gotta shift focus to mainly cleaning and getting the house to look, idk, 'normal' I guess. Better put my bones and swords and chains away I guess, grumble grumble

Oh that is so hard hun. What you reckon might help you cope? Anything I can do? Oh and also, you can always, always talk about your feelings, so if you're not sure, that can be a good place to start. Feeling super stressed out or more like, disconnected, or maybe you're super low... What seems most prominent for ya atm?

Just been triggered. One rule for some and another for others. It feels personal.

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I think it’s coming to the time that I leave.

Also.. thanks for editing not deleting. I do appreciate it.