I can’t cope

That’s soooo cute!! @Jynx

I don’t usually dream when I sleep. I’m one of those people that don’t see pictures. But last night I had a nightmare. It was very unsettling and then I tossed and turned for the rest of the night. It was one of those that could actually happen in life. I actually got up to make sure my doors and windows were locked.

Im feeling tired today with the lack of sleep.

I coped heaps in the meal room at lunch. This girl was telling a story and was adamant that it was me. No one would believe me when I said it wasn’t. It was pretty embarrassing. The story goes… this person was drunk and was on stage at a male revue show dancing with them. I guess it’s not that bad but I hated that everyone believed her and thought I would do that. I won’t even go to a revue show. I’m not interested let alone get on stage and manhandle them.

It seems so minor, I know, but I shouldn’t have to argue that it wasn't me. It’s like all my life I’ve been told what to do, when to do it, accused of things which half the time was the golden child. It’s like I’m always the one that has to just take what is thrown my way.

Why can’t I just be? Why am I such an easy target? Am I just a born loser? Is this just what I have to put up with? Am I not worth any respect. Am I just not worth anything?

@Captain24 innit just!! Teehee

How you going hun? You at work tonight?

Oh woops @Captain24 just saw your other post!!

You been putting up with a lot of workplace bullying!! My gosh!! Is this just the latest or has it been ramping up?

I think the people who make the easiest targets for bullies are usually the nicest and kindest... because they're less likely to stand up for themselves. Remember, their behaviour only shows that THEY are a-holes, and is NOT a reflection of your worth!! Besides, if they're awful enough to be bullies, then their opinion of you isn't worth a thing!!

I just wrote a ramble above @Jynx. I’m home from work. Just waiting for the dogs to come home.

I could see both my dogs playing like that especially as puppies. That chihuahua gives me Pix vibes.

It’s just what happens @Jynx. The girl today has only been at work for 6 months. I know it’s nothing serious but it just feels like it is. The bad sleep after the nightmare probably isn’t helping.

It’s all just little things but they add up after a while and get too much. Of If I was nice and kind they wouldn’t do it to me they would respect me. It makes me believe that I’m just not a good person.

On the very rare time that I am a little short with someone it’s usually because they deserved it. Something they have done or didn’t do. So that makes me question me. Do I deserve it

Isn’t she beautiful. She looks so happy.

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@Captain24 wrote:

I know it’s nothing serious but it just feels like it is.

No no, hun you are being bullied. That is ENTIRELY serious. And also, they don't get to decide if it's bullying or not - if it is hurting your feelings, which it is, then it is BULLYING - and it is ILLEGAL. You have grounds to go to Fair Work in my opinion. No one deserves to be insulted, belittled, singled out, and defamed (accusing you of being in a revue when you weren't is defamation aka damage to your reputation - also bullying, also illegal) in the workplace, or anywhere.

When you feel up to it, maybe give these guys a looksie and see if there's some guidance around what steps you could potentially take. You do NOT deserve this treatment.

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@Captain24 wrote:

On the very rare time that I am a little short with someone it’s usually because they deserved it. Something they have done or didn’t do. So that makes me question me. Do I deserve it

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I think you're judging their actions based on your own moral compass. And like me, your moral compass actually works well!! But these people don't operate by the same logic of 'I will be short with them because they deserve it', they're operating on instincts and insecurities - putting others down to make themselves feel better basically. They aren't picking on you because they think you deserve it, they're likely picking on you because you won't join them in bullying others. In fact, I think this is just evidence of the fact that YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON - much higher moral standing than those poopyheads!

EEEEEE BABYYYYYY

HELLO!!!

What a precious lil face!! Just wanna gobble her up hey @Captain24 😍

So you don’t think I’m overreacting? @Jynx.

I can’t do anything about it as it’ll put a bigger target on my back. I just have to toughen up I guess.

Usually I can take it better but my MH is so bad that I think it’s getting to me easier. It’s triggering so much. I’m in a dark place.

She is beautiful she is still sitting in the same spot with that cute little smile. It warms my heart.