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Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before. I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent. there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.
Yeah that's a tough place to be 💔. I'm thinking of you xx
Have you been writing at all this week? @Captain24
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Captain24Senior Contributor
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I journal everyday. @Former-Member.
I just want to curl up in a ball and cry but I can’t cry and haven’t been able to for months. I’m just going to bed a praying that I don’t wake up.
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I find it really difficult to journal, how do you motivate yourself? @Captain24
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Hey @Captain24, about to log off for the night. Sending big hugs xx
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Captain24Senior Contributor
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Feeling tired and really drained
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JynxModerator
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Anything you want to chat about @Captain24 ?
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Captain24Senior Contributor
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Hi @Jynx
My social phobia is out of control and I’m in a depressive cycle of bipolar. I had a family reunion today that I had to take my dad too. While it was an ok day, I had to put on a front for 8hrs. It’s just taken so much out of me. It’s left me feeling pretty distressed.
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JynxModerator
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What a perfectly horrible combination of events. I know intimately well how exhausting it is to put on a brave face @Captain24 . Sounds like you've got a pretty good awareness of what's going on for you right now. Do you have a support plan or something that you can look back on to help you navigate this cycle? I hope you can catch/give yourself a break tonight, and that you are able to drift off to slumber super quickly. Do you have much on tomorrow?
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Captain24Senior Contributor
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It is so exhausting @Jynx. Hopefully I can sleep well. I have a meeting tomorrow that I have to put on the front again. But I also have to do all the housework and pack my bag to go away. I’m going to the coast with my parents to see my brother for a week. My family don’t know about my MI. So I have to put on the front for another week. I’m hoping for soon alone time to be able to unwind myself.
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JynxModerator
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Oh my @Captain24 that is a lot of masking. Yes I do hope you get to carve out some time for yourself, that is so, so important. And I hope the meeting goes smoothly. Are you looking forward to seeing your brother?
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