Hiya @Captain24 how are you travelling today?
Sorry I wasn't here yesterday, guess who had several meltdowns!! After getting a very nasty electricity bill, had to spend 3 hours on the phone to customer service.... then Trixie vomited all under my bed, right in the back corner, and on some of my books, AND the book my partner lent me! Then... Razz pissed on my weighted blanket! Add in a late period and some pretty severe PMS and you get - a Jynx-bomb!! Haha not to worry I'm a-ok, I let myself be all weepy and gross for a day and am back to baseline today.
@Captain24 wrote:
So it was a really good appointment @Jynx. I’ve finished feeling a bit better. I’m exhausted though. I did read the whole thing out to her. It wasn’t easy but it helped her realise where I was at.
She did some imagery something that’s part of schema therapy.
We went back to a memory that has lead to my MH issues. It was an image of mum telling us we weren’t wanted. She took me to that place and worked through that she was there and took me around to my nan and pops house and they just held me and loved me unconditionally. I have to work on what she did daily. So I can feel loved unconditionally and cared for. Nothing has been done like that before. I did have a psych in hospital help me find my inner child so I think that helped with this imagery thing.
Right at this moment I feel cared for. Not sure if it was taking me to Nan and pops house or that she cared enough for me to take me there and actually help.
Wow!! What a session!! Sounds like you really dug into the nitty gritty. And that would have been such a monumentally painful experience, I am so sorry that you were told that. If it helps, I love you unconditionally too!!
With all of this being dredged up, I'm not surprised that you're feeling pretty ooky and 'unwanted' in the forums space. I'd say that's more a displaced sensation stemming from what you worked on in therapy than anything based on your experiences here. Do you think so?
