I can’t cope

I'll have a look @Captain24 🙂

Well done for getting everything done @Captain24

Certainly is you time now. You deserve it.

Wow @Captain24 . That's so so great to hear about your psych appointment. I think having that understanding can be so liberating because it shows that you are not doing anything 'wrong'. It also sounds very validating.

In a way, what she has said totally aligns with Acceptance and Commitment Therapy. The idea of just letting the feelings come and go. To watch and observe them, putting each thought on a leaf and watching it flow downstream.

Thank you so much for sharing. In a way, that's why it's good to change psychs after a while. If you feel things have become stagnant and you are not getting anywhere, seeing a new therapist is like a breath of fresh air.

There’s so much more I really should have done @Snowie but I’m trying to tell myself that it’s ok because I did achieve things today.

I’m trying really hard today to do what she said. @tyme. I’m trying to tell myself that it’s ok that I didn’t do as much as I should have.

That big dark cloud is hanging over my head. It’s still really strong. I still don’t want to be alive. It’s not easy to not fight with it but it’s a lot less tiring.

I guess it’s ACT she does do that. She did say to acknowledge the feeling and just let it stay there, don’t fight against it. I haven’t had much help with that in the past. She doesn’t do the leaves on the stream with me because I don’t see pictures.

I’m beginning to think my old psych wasn’t qualified, or hadn’t updated her skills since 1950.

Some days its ok to just do nothing @Captain24 or not achieve as much as we wanted. And thats ok. It doesn't make us any less or that we've done something wrong.

LOL. Sorry, I had to really laugh when you said she'd prob not updated her skills since the 1950s. @Captain24

ACT is a relatively newer approach. But even then, it's been around for quite a while.

I’m trying to let myself see it that way @Snowie

She is in her late 50’s early 60’s. I actually feel sorry for her clients. She could be doing so much damage to them especially the young ones who don’t know any better, like I didn’t. @tyme

Ehat have you been up to?

Alright.. this is where I need some advice. The dark cloud is swallowing me. It’s really consuming me. How do I try and sit with it when the noise is so loud. When my thoughts are deep and dark.

Notice the darkness. Notice the noise. Notice the loudness.

The more you notice and get to 'know' the darkness, the more you will become the spectator as opposed to it being you and you being it.

Sorry if I don't make sense @Captain24