I can’t cope

The reframe just felt like words that I just had to say because my psych would expect them. @Ru-bee @Jynx. I guess it’s a start but I’m not sure I will ever believe them.

Yeah.. I needed the rest but I have to get up early tomorrow to head down south. So now I’m not sure I’ll be able to sleep.

I’ve just straighten my hair for the first time in probably 6 months if not longer. I’m trying this self care stuff. I hoping if I look nice tomorrow I’ll feel nice. I am looking forward to seeing my psych in person though. I’m just trying to coordinate with 2 friends to catch up.

Those seemingly smaller things can give us a bit of a boost sometimes @Captain24 I do the same thing sometimes and it can give me the extra motivation to get me out of the house when I need it.

Coordinating your appointment tomorrow with a catch up with your friends sounds like a really good idea. It sounds like tomorrow is looking to be a nice day

@Captain24 yeah I remember always feeling so ooky whenever I was doing reframes and stuff. It's so okay hun. This is what it is to push outside our comfort zone. But that's where all progress takes place!

Oh lush!! Was it nice getting into the rhythm of the straightening process? Bet it's all silky and flowy now!!

I can only try @Jynx

My hair feels ok. I want to have it out and nice for tomorrow. My psych has only seen it pulled up in a ponytail. I’m hoping it stays straight when I sleep tonight.

How did you go with your new partner. Did you get all the stuff sorted?

@Captain24 Oh true, does it usually? It's usually only water that makes it curl again right?

Yeah it all went so well! Lot's of communication and vulnerability and discussions of boundaries, all does the trick!! I think the biggest hurdle now is gonna be scheduling 😅

Anything else on for you tonight hun?

My hair is really fine so it gets a bit fuzzy @Jynx. There is rain so it goes frizzy and sorta kinky. It’s not wavy or curly it’s just a mess.

It sounds so complicated. Do you have like a main partner or is everyone equal? Tell me if I’m overstepping. I’m just interested.

Im just watching tv. I’ve missed the block all week so I’m catching up. I have lots of tv to catch up on.

What did you get upto over the weekend?

@Captain24 aww sounds tough to manage! I think that's why my hair has gotten shorter and shorter over the years, much easier to take care of!

Not overstepping!! Curiosity is a wonderful thing! So I prefer to operate in a non-hierarchical kinda way. Each relationship is its own entity and I try to give them all the same amount of time and attention where possible. Depends on everyone's schedules though!! It can be complicated, but it is also really awesome in so many ways! It's really nice to be able to get my needs met by multiple people, and build beautiful and unique relationships with each of them 😊

Aww nice!! I've not seen the block, it's an auction show or something?

Just caught up with some friends, had a pretty chill day Sunday. How bout you, were you at work?

It’s really horrible hair @Jynx. Thats why I just tie it up all the time. My hair is shoulder length. I use to have it a lot longer but I cut it off!

I have so many inappropriate questions! 😜

The block is a Reno show. I also like My Kitchen Rules. I’m hoping I can watch it all on Wednesday as Thursday I have a training day for work which I really don’t want to go to. I don’t want anything to do with work.

That sounds good. Yeah. I was at work. I did nightshift Friday, Saturday and Sunday. So it was an absolutely f’ing shit weekend. I hate that I’m alive.

Is it quite fair @Captain24 or are you a bit darker? My hair is suuuuper light, I used to be almost white blond as a kid! It's become a soft brown now, but my hair is sooooo fine, it did not enjoy getting straightened... back in the day when I still thought I was a girl, anyhow!!

Haha well if you didn't ask, you'd never learn new things!! And as always, if ever you accidentally say anything inappropriate I will gently let you know!! And never judge you for it, cos there's no guilt in not knowing 😉

Aww hun, sounds like work is really doing your head in at the moment! Has it been getting more stressful of late, or are you burnt out maybe?

Also... I'm really glad you're alive @Captain24. I'd miss our chats sooooo much.