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I can’t cope

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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so proud of you @Captain24!! after a tough night, you managed to go to the vets, walk around and do some shopping - sounds like a great big step 😊

sorry that you still feel unwell, maybe a nice wind activity might help - those lego sets look fun, are you planning on building one of them tonight? hope you're keeping warm 💗

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Thanks @rav3n. I couldn’t let Jett down. It was his last rehab appointment. The last thing I felt like doing was 2 hrs each way. I did drive carefully and I had to keep pulling up.

I’ve got the heater on and I’ve just done some ironing and 2 loads of washing. I need to get everything sorted this weekend for my admission. So lots to do.

I could do one tonight. I’ve achieved a bit considering. It’ll get me out of my head for a little while. It’s very dark in there still.

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@Captain24 that's good you pulled over and took breaks! Jett's lucky to have you look after him 😊

looks like you're getting ontop of all the prep for the week, busy day hey! how are you feeling about the admission?

if you do decide to do the lego, i'd love to see the progress/finished work!

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Both of my dogs are really spoilt @rav3n. Well I’d rather say ‘well loved!’ Pix spent the day at mum and dads. I didn’t want to have to take both of them

over.

I’ve still got 9 days to go but I just have a lot happening in those 9 days! I’m looking forward to it in a way. It’s the next stage from my admission in March. But I am filled with anxiety about having to go back in.

What time do you finish?

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Where Jett likes to sit.

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Heya @Captain24 ,

Cute photo. I didn't realise Jett was so small. I always thought they were bigger.

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He is only 3 kgs @tyme. I’ll try and get a photo of them both near something that will give you an idea of size. Just might take a little while. They are not cooperative!

 This is the base of the Chrysanthemum @rav3n. I’ll do the rest over the weekend. Just wanted to show you I started!

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Very cute. I've seen pics of them together, and on your lap, but this photo makes him look so small.

Do you have a shift over the weekend? @Captain24

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@Captain24 aww Jett's such a cutie 💗

Oh I see, totally valid that you have some mixed feelings about it. Is there anything in particular that's causing you anxiety? Maybe we can figure out some tools to help you there!

loving the progress with lego, thanks for sharing 😍

i finish up at 10 🙂

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He is pretty tiny @tyme. He is soooo skinny, he is a healthy weight though!

So when they are standing. Their backs are around 20 cm high and their heads are around 30cm high. I don’t know if that helps. Jetts a little bit taller than Pix but not by much.


I go back to work on Wednesday. But this weekend I have 2 dogs to bath, mow front and back lawns, clean the house, clean the last spare room, have a shower, wash my hair, go to the markets and get my meds that I haven’t had for a week.

Then Monday I’m getting my tax done, getting my hair done and have an interview. Tuesday I have a training day for work. Back to work Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. Finalise everything and clean the house too to bottom Saturday, house sitters arrive Sunday and I’m off on Monday. Nowhere in there is time to breathe, time to relax, time to reset.

I haven’t even heard from then in regards to the admission. They are hopeless. I have sent an email so I will have to try and ring them in my spare time that I have none of.

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