I can’t cope

I’m done. I can’t face it. I can’t even have a shower because I was stupid.

Oh the hatred. So much hatred. That voice is honest but nasty.

@Captain24 I wish I could answer you, but alas, no one can walk our recovery path for us. We need to figure out the way forward for ourselves. And note, I say FORWARD, not BACK. Can't explain it better than this:

You don't need to give up. That's so final. You could always say, 'Today is crap. I am done with today. I give up on it. But I will try again tomorrow.'

Your time of bloom will come darlin. I have faith in you.

🦋💜

I’m curled up in bed sobbing @Jynx

Will tomorrow even be any better. I will still be the same person. That’s not going to change.

Ive tried so hard and where has it gotten me? Nowhere.

Maybe I’ll bloom or maybe I’ll be stuck as a big pile of goo. Good things don’t happen to people like me

@Captain24 or, counter-thought: no matter what, you will ALWAYS be a different person tomorrow, because that's just the nature of human beings. We grow. We change. The only constant, the only sure thing about life, is that there is always change.

You say your efforts have gotten you nowhere. I don't believe that. I've been witness to your growth hun. You may not be able to see or feel it just yet, but it's definitely happening. Little bit by little bit.

Good morning @NatureLover

I hope you are starting to feel a little better.

I just thought I’d take this photo for you. It’s not as cold as it can get but it is a bit chilly

It was foggy all the way to work, I had to drive via the white lines on the side of the road. Lucky the road is now wide enough to have them. It’s only been this year that it’s red wide enough.

Oh gosh, that must be hard to take when you love extreme heat @Captain24 !

Thanks for thinking of me, I wish I was starting to feel better.

Certainly cold @Captain24

Hope today goes well

Yep I hate the cold!

Sorry you don’t feel any better. @NatureLover

Im at work @Snowie and it’s going well today. The girl in the office has me doing stuff

Today work was better.

Um in a fair bit of pain with my back.

I told mum it was too sore to meet them

on the walk. At least I don’t have to deal with them too much. They will whinge at me when they get here.