I can’t cope

It’s hard when the weather just won’t help with the enjoyment! @tyme If you can call walking enjoyment. Maybe a better way is saying more grounding!!!! Mmmmm… taking the kids for a walk! Yep.. I get it 😜

I’m only allowed to walk around the house. No sitting, no walking, no lifting, no pushing, no pulling. I have to use a heat pack, only sit for so long and then I have to walk around. I can’t actually lift my right leg to put my pants and shoes on without extreme pain.

I hurt my back at work. It really sucks!! It’s just adding to the pressures. That’s why I’m really starting to struggle. There are moments that it gets really scary. Those moments are becoming more frequent though.

Oh no @Captain24 .... do they have a legal right to put you off at all? It's a scary thought.

Seeing you are in NSW would you consider doing a Peer Worker certificate? Or a Cert in Mental Health. There are a lot of online courses. Some have fee exemptions and scholarships running. You can have a look to see if MHCC is granting and scholarship openings if you are interested.

Is your current job a job you can do when you are older? Or is it physically taxing?

No they don’t @tyme. So far it isn’t even through work cover. It’s just been in house at the moment. It isn’t bad enough to take it through them. Plus then they can pull my medical records and I dont want anything on there to be seen.

The oldest guy at work is 70 then 67 and they go down from there. So it’s a job you can keep going at.

I did enrol in Cert IV but I stopped doing when things got really bad with the whole med thing. I need to try and restart it.

With the course, is it online so you can do it whenever, as long as you complete it by a certain deadline? @Captain24

Yeah it’s through TAFE @tyme. So I need to get stuck into it. But it does scare me how dumb I am though. I was struggling with the first assignment before I crashed. So I’m now really worried that I’m just not capable.

Is there peer workers on Monday? Is it a public holiday?

Hey @Captain24 ,

Yes, it's a Public Holiday on Monday so there will be NO peer workers. But there will be mods online. I will be sending out a notification about it 🙂

Are you working on Monday?

No I go back to work on Wednesday. @tyme. That’s a bugger. One of the weekend PSW’s makes me feel uncomfortable

Im lying here once again not being able to go to sleep. The new med helps sometimes but not others. I have just taken another plus a different one. Surely something has to work.

It’s lonely. Sometimes I think I should just get up and do stuff but if I do I won’t sleep at all. Or just sleep all day, which won’t help either.

I’ve even taken a few OTC painkillers.

I’ve had a shower, I’ve had a hot drink, my room temperature is fine and the aircon is set to keep it the same and I’ve listened to white noise. I also listened to an honest meditation. But I’m too stupid to work out how to just play that without YouTube continuing into other shit. It’s really frustrating being so dumb.