I can’t cope

Going on that chat was like walking into a room of strangers and having to

talk. @tyme. But I survived.

I’m trying to get myself back together. I think I’m kinda doing ok some of the time.

She is coming back in 6 months but I think she will be here sooner. I don’t think she can wait that long now that she has made the decision.

I think little steps in doing things that feel uncomfortable may be the way to grow and move forward @Captain24 . Of course, it's not about just throwing you into the deep end and expecting you to swim.

I know for me, I had to make conscious efforts to put myself in spaces I wasn't most comfy such as going to functions etc... but like you said, 'I survived'. You honestly did so well on the chat though. I learnt a lot from the chat, and really want to continue learning.

6 months sounds like a long time, but in reality, it's not really. Will she stay with you for a bit?

Thank you @tyme I did try. I’d like to learn more.

I need to put myself out there more but I can only do so much.

No Way is she staying with me! There is an empty house on her dad’s farm so she is going out there. When I’m around her I get dragged into all her family dramas. They just consider me as one of them. But when things are good being one of them is great.

She knows all about my MH and has called me when she has had an anxiety attack. She told me first about her son’s ADHD so she will be understanding when I say I need a break from her dad, his partner and her mum.

Hey @Captain24 , I'm going to say good night now and start wrapping up.

I'm feel buggered and haven't recovered from the weekend yet.

Did I end up answering your question from a while back? Yes, I'm still housesitting and I've hardly been sleeping. I think it's only 3 more days housesitting or something.

But yes, tiredness has really hit me today and I'm surviving on little spurts of energy.

I'll catch you tomorrow.

Oh, so she'll be bringing her son with her too? @Captain24

You might have another godson!

Yeah.. I was his chief babysitter before she left. He doesn’t remember me now but we were really close. @tyme. I loved that little boy like he was my own. It’ll be a bit different now he is 8!!

Oh yes! That must be the kid who talked your ear off on your bday! @Captain24

I just saw your knocking off post @tyme.

I hope you can get some decent sleep soon. I know how important it is to us and our MH.

Please look after yourself

Yes @tyme that was him!

I’ve taken my meds and taken the last med I was to go back on and I don’t feel well.