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I can’t cope

Captain24Senior Contributor16 June 2022, 9:48 pm AEST

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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Captain24Senior Contributor12 May 2024, 8:42 pm AEST

Re: I can’t cope

Hey @tyme

Sorry for failing still. I was made feel unwanted and unwelcome earlier. Like that I haven’t even tried.

It’s hard to train them to learn to walk on a lead. Lots of patience!!!

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tymeModerator12 May 2024, 9:00 pm AEST

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Hey @Captain24 ,

You didn't fail. I'm sorry you felt that way.

Is there something I could have done better?

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Captain24Senior Contributor12 May 2024, 9:24 pm AEST

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It doesn’t matter @tyme. It’s probably what everyone is thinking anyway. It has made me question a lot, on here and with myself. Just can’t voice it here.

Are you going to be chief dog walker? 😜

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tymeModerator12 May 2024, 9:34 pm AEST

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Arghhh @Captain24 . Those thoughts really like rooting themselves in your mind, eh?

Of course I like talking to you. Seriously. You are awesome to talk to.

As for chief walker - no. I don't have time. I didn't want the dog. That's not my job. I don't even want to pat her because I don't want to love her too much.

But geez she's cute.

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Captain24Senior Contributor12 May 2024, 9:47 pm AEST

Re: I can’t cope

I enjoy our chats and appreciate the support @tyme.

Yeah.. I’m in a little bit of trouble but I do see my psych tomorrow and I have to contact my CM. She is concerned about my safety.

Hahaha… we will see about Ruby-rose!!

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tymeModerator12 May 2024, 9:57 pm AEST

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You know what? Be honest with them. Everyone is concerned about your safety. Let them know if you really honestly feel you don't think you can keep yourself safe. At the same time I can see that they don't want to admit you straight away as they probably want you to have a go at utilising some of the strats you have learnt.

I have hope that things will work out in the end. I recognise it is so so hard right now. When I think about my MH journey, this got to the worst of the worst before there was a steep recovery. I somehow can align how you are now with a certain time in my recovery.

Ruby-Rose... argh... I think I have holes in all my clothes. She loves sinking her teeth into my clothes when she's excited....babies....

First night, I had my nephew sleep with me. Second night, I had my niece sleep with me. They said the dog whimpered all night and they couldn't sleep. So both kids hopped into my bed last night... tonight, none of them are here. I think they are all buggered and now asleep. @Captain24

Anyway, I'm off now. Will talk later this week.

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tymeModerator13 May 2024, 12:20 am AEST