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I can’t cope

Captain24Senior Contributor16 June 2022, 9:48 pm AEST

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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Captain24Senior Contributor15 Apr 2024, 9:47 pm AEST

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Nah it’s the work truck that does it @Jynx. Sorry, I may have forgotten that path.

It’s definitely a change. A lot of the time I can now see a future. Only a little way ahead. But it’s something. I like to plan just incase I do make it further. I still don’t see myself making it to old age. I believe I will have ended it by then. But wanting to end my life currently isn’t always at the forefront of my mind.

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JynxModerator15 Apr 2024, 9:56 pm AEST

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Aye @Captain24 it can feel very odd to plan for a future you'd never thought you'd have! My friends and I sometimes joke about the fact that we're all living in our 'bonus era' cos we all have had SI in the past and gotten through it. The nice part is, now it kinda becomes part of the gratitude. As in, I'm just grateful to be here, to feel the warmth of the sun and see the green of the trees and listen to birdsong and ocean waves and thunderstorms, and that is a beautiful thing 😊 Even if you don't see yourself making it to old age, you're still seeing enough of a future to have something to strive for - which is such an amazing thing. So proud of you!

Alrighty, I'm off for the evening, hope you get to sing some sweet songs tonight! Chat to ya next time 💜

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor16 Apr 2024, 7:39 am AEST

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Hey @Captain24 , I'm sorry you don't feel safe or heard with your psych 😢 Also that she doesn't work on one thing longer then a session. Do you feel able to tell her you'd like to work on something longer then a session?

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Captain24Senior Contributor16 Apr 2024, 7:42 am AEST

Re: I can’t cope

Hey @NatureLover

Im going to have to try. I think she means well but it just seems we are going nowhere.

How are you going?

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor16 Apr 2024, 7:46 am AEST

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Can you write it down for her? @Captain24

I don't know, I am shocked and blown sideways by Eve7's news which I just read 😭

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Captain24Senior Contributor16 Apr 2024, 8:13 am AEST

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I can try. @NatureLover. I see her again in 3 weeks.

I know I’m shocked too. I’m worried about her

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor16 Apr 2024, 8:16 am AEST

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Mybe you are better at speaking, but I'm better at writing so I always write things down for my psych @Captain24 . 3 weeks...I hope your psych will allow herself to be influnced by your wishes 🤞

I know, I'm frightened for her...she was already unwell 😭

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Captain24Senior Contributor16 Apr 2024, 8:25 am AEST

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I will write a list @NatureLover. I really want to work through the trauma. I know it’s going to be hard but I believe if I can pack it away everything else should follow through.

That’s what I’m concerned about. She was really struggling.

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SnowieSenior Contributor16 Apr 2024, 8:57 am AEST

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Hi @Captain24 @NatureLover

Wishing both of you a good day today hon, hoping it goes well 💜💜

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Captain24Senior Contributor16 Apr 2024, 9:00 am AEST

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Wishing you a much better day than yesterday @Snowie

How are you feeling

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