I can’t cope

Do you think it's bad because you feel guilty for not having done anything? @Captain24

Or, is it that you feel bad and that's why you haven't done anything?

I'm just thinking, do you think loneliness or isolation affects your mental health? Have you every considered whether you wanted to have someone live with you?

(Once again, I know there are so many questions - please don't answer then if you don't feel comfy to do so)... I just have so many thoughts in my mind.

For me, I remember that when I was in PARCs, I had people to talk to everyday and it really helped me. I could openly share about my mental health and it was so helpful. When I live alone, I don't have anyone to share things with. Yes, these forums are invaluable but it's different to talking to someone in real life.

I didn’t have any motivation when I woke up this morning @tyme. So I felt bad in waking. But I also feel bad because I was useless and didn’t do anything. It’s like a vicious circle.

I can’t have a house mate. It would be good at times but it would make it so much worse most of the time. I’m mostly better off on my own when I’m in a good place or bad place.

I get what you are saying about PARCS. I had people 24/7 when I was in the clinic. We could talk about anything, life or mental health or just nothing. When I needed alone time I just put out a card and got left alone.

Thank you for recognising that the forums are great but just not the same.

What you wrote totally resonated with me. @Captain24

I hear what you are saying and I feel that way as well.

When the kids jumped on me this morning at 6am, I was CRANKY! I wanted to sleep! I spent the rest of the day half asleep. As much as I want to be angry at them, they are just too cute. When I lived alone, I didn't get disturbed by kids.... then, i wouldn't be so cranky!

I remember when I had my dogs though, they would wake me because they wanted food or they wanted to come in or go out... do your dogs wake you?

I’m glad you get it @tyme. The number of times people tell me I should get a house mate is unbelievable. A house mate isn’t going to help my MH at all.

Yeah.. Pix licks my face when she needs to go out and Jett jumps up and down in the playpen. They certainly let me know. It’s good though cause both usually can make it til morning. Even Jett with his puppy bladder.

Ive taken extra meds to try and get to sleep but it’s not working.

Yes, I'm hearing you.

I think if i had someone for a short time, it'd be okayish... but not long term. I need by space for my own MH!

@Captain24

Hope the meds kick in for you soon. I'm heading off shortly, but will see you mid week. Which days are you working?

I wish they would kick in too @tyme. If not soon I’ll go and take more.

I work Wednesday and Thursday day shifts then Friday, Saturday and Sunday nightshifts.

Yikes... that's tough.. day and night shifts.. @Captain24

You're amazing, even if it doesn't feel like it right now.

I'll catchya hopefully Wed or Thurs evening.

Have a good evening.

Hugs

So far today I have done more than I have done in the last 3 days. I want to get everything done today so all I have to do tomorrow is study.

Im sitting here waiting for my psych appointment. Hopefully I can steer the appointment into the direction I want. I’m going to try.

Hope everyone has a reasonable day.

Hi @Captain24

I hope your psych appointment goes well hon and you can discuss what you need too.

Sneding lots of love 💜💜