ChristheartSenior Contributor
What's working for me right now
Hey guys,
I recently had two days of being so anxious I couldn't keep any food down.
Last night I came across this idea of 'radical acceptance'. From my understanding it is the concept of radically accepting your situation/illness, and allowing yourself to exist despite it. Since coming across this I've been able to eat a little because I haven't been such an anxious mess. So... maybe I won't ever find a husband? Maybe I won't be the perfect socialite? Maybe I won't have many or any friends? ...What CAN I do though... what can I do, figure that out and then focus on that...
Some of my panic comes from thinking how I'm going to get through the rest of my days, life is long, I want it to be over... I wish I was 80 instead of 27 so it would nearly be over, then SI sneaks in. But I have to axe those thoughts like invasive bramble bushes trying to take over my mind. And scripture says to worry about today, tomorrow has enough worries of its own. So maybe I could get through 'one day at a time'... that will make for a very long life... time will go slowly. Or maybe not... I don't know!
Radical acceptance...
Also I started watching Anne with an E. I relate to the way Anne was as a child. But now I kind of represent her old care taker Mitchell or Myrella...
The fact is, I can radically accept the way God made me, and the way I am now. I still pray for healing, but in the mean time I'm radically accepting and it feels very brave
