Looking back at old things

I can relate, I almost never read old stuff I've written anywhere for that reason. If Bay52VU jogs a reminder of anything then IDK. But what I've been trying to do for 'cringe-attacks' or 'shame-attacks' is remind myself that today I'm doing my best, and stuff I'm unhappy with having done in the past is just a lesson for tomorrow (followed up by some kind of distraction so I'll have something else to think about).

Thanks @TheVorticon @Yeah it does haha, and I’m sorry you had the misfortune of knowing me back then.

Hey @ArraDreaming ,

You're self-reflection now, at a time when you are 'older' and 'wiser' really helps make you (and us) a better person.

There are things in my life I'm not pleased about, but the main thing is that we live and learn from them.

I admire you for your post,

tyme

@ArraDreaming nah mate, it wasn't a misfortune at all. I used to like talking to you, and even after I'd left I would sometimes come back to see if there were any updates on how you (and some of the other old members) were doing. I always appreciated how you could share where you were at and be vulnerable about things going to shit, and felt privileged to have been a part of that in whatever way. So it definitely wasn't the super-negative impression you might think. Not by a long shot.

I hope you are doing well @TheVorticon

I have got my hands full now 🧒 👶 bit different to those years

Thanks @tyme ❤️

Hi @ArraDreaming I can totally relate as both a Bipolar and alcoholic.

I was riddled with guilt for a long time. In the end you makes amends where you can. In some cases I wrote letters to those I could not. Thought about and implemented strategies for avoiding the same thing happening again. Then started living “clean” … really focussed doing things right and making good decisions - not introducing new reasons to feel guilty.

The above is a huge set of tasks. Confronting. I still get things really wrong from time to time. I’m still “evolving” in this space. But I can tell you that in my experience living a life with significantly less guilt has been very good for my mental health.

I wish you good luck on your journey…

Great to see you @Delicatessen . You've raised such an important point @Delicatessen - do whatever it is to make amends. Guilt can really wear the person down. It's like this lingering burden.

And @ArraDreaming , you have come such a long way. And yes, different responsibilities can make a huge difference.

We are all 'evolving' in this space, as you said @Delicatessen . It doesn't mean we are perfect, so expect trips and falls. But it also means we can get up and keep going even when it gets tough.

Hang in there friends,

tyme

Hi @ArraDreaming ,

Hope you are well. How are things going for you?

Take care,

tyme

I am fine @tyme it’s just something that will linger in the back of my mind probably forever, I don’t think I can really forgive myself for it. I was a complete shit

head. I’d like to live in denial that I even existed on this earth pre 2020 but that’s complete bullshit.
I just had a really busy but really fun weekend away with the visited my partners family a few hours away and just did all the fun things