Anna53Contributor
Sport can help
Hi, it’s been awhile since I’ve been able to write. Life is full on for me at the best of times and dealing with anxiety and depression on top of it doesn’t help. I have 5 days a week taken up with work and looking after my grandsons then one day a week I have my grandson here and one day a week I ride. Sport for me is a saviour and my way of relaxing and completely stepping away from life. I was never good at sport at school, I’m the kid that came last even though I tried. Later on in life I became a gym junkie and ran and it overtook everything I did. That wore off then my daughter gave me her one year old purebred husky who is now just over 11. Over these last few weeks he’s had two major surgeries removing 3 cysts 4 tumours and 8 teeth despite receiving the best care and food you can get. He looks like a patchwork quilt and I’m devastated. Along with him I have a horse that my girls got me for my 50th birthday. My daughter taught me to ride and it took a long time and a few serious accidents on her horse before I got the hang of it but finally one day it clicked and I found my sport, the thing I was actually okay at. My days out trail riding really save me. I have to concentrate and just think of us. He gives the best cuddles and listens when I talk and makes me feel free. These two animals are my saving grace from my crazy life. I wish I could say things are better for me but they’re not. Life is still a constant struggle where I’ll feel okay then a few hours later be down and sad and exhausted only to pick up in the afternoon. How many others go through this circle of life and how do you cope? I have no one to talk too as I don’t have friends by choice and I have a crumbling marriage and 3 busy adult children. Please if you have any advice that’s helped you I’d love to hear it. Take care Anna xx
