Family and Current Flooding in QLD.

This week I found out of about the flooding up in Brisbane. My father lived in an area where it was only a 5min walk to the nearest wharf along the river, which I found really scary. Even though at times my relationship with him might be cold or lop sided I care about him a lot. I was really worried sick thinking he still lived in the same area. Then I found out from him that he had moved 3 hours away and had been there since January. He didn't even give me his new address the moment he moved in. He had me worried sick all yesterday afternoon and not giving me the info I was supposed to know. I then find out his partner hadn't been doing too well and has to undergo some tests. Touch wood she doesn't have to undergo another bout of cancer. I spent this week, especially yesterday keeping an eye on my father and making sure that everyone was ok over there. I then texted his partner to let her know I am thinking of her. We always got along.

And then as I went to bed I got really emotional. I then started to think about starting to be prepared for when my cat would pass on. He is turning 12 this year. I know it seems funny or odd. But he has been my rock since I adopted him last year. I look at him and I just feel stronger. I had been thinking of worst case scenarios, got overwhelmed and just cried. I cried for almost an hour like I needed that time. Then the guy I have a massive crush on rang me on video call and all of a sudden I felt better. We made each other laugh, I listened to him practice his guitar, we talk about lots of things. This made me feel so much better and feel like I had a balance. A balance of emotion. I am hopeful that things will work out. Lately I had my head screwed on feeling and being in more control of my alcohol consumption. Just last night was very much a catch 22 or a bit of column A or column B.