Struggling

Hello @RedHorse @perspective how are you going?

Not doing very well @Dimity but thanks for asking. Still struggling just to get out of bed each day and everything is a mess...

Have a telehealth appointment with psychologist tomorrow so that should help, fingers crossed.

Hope you are doing okay.

Take care,

RedHorse 🌹🐴

Oh no @Dimity psychologist didn't text to confirm telehealth tomorrow indicating that I don't have an appointment tomorrow after all...

Hi @RedHorse that's a worry. But the same thing happened to me last month. I texted my psychologist asking what had happened and she rang that afternoon when another client's telehealth consult fell through. So I caught up with her after all...

Now I'm waiting out the break til I can get another mental health plan.

Mornings can be hard. This morning I let the cat out then went back to sleep (as usual). I was woken by my next door neighbour knocking to tell me the cat was at HIS door. The cat was OK after a feed and I hope the neighbour didn't mind too much.

Hugs @Dimity , @RedHorse , @perspective ❤❤

Sitting with you my friends

Hi @Shaz51 @RedHorse @perspective and anyone passing through.

Well I've voted early, as there's not many buses on Saturdays. It was an effort to get out. I'm not coping well atm, I'm tired and weepy for no real reason. It's been 3 weeks since I spoke to anyone, and that was to my psychologist who offered a free session as I'm waiting on a new mental health plan. My gp is holding off on it.

Hoping you're all keeping well and tomorrow is a good day for you

Dimity

Hi Dimiti,

sorry to hear you’re weepy. Is it just generalised unhappiness or did something trigger you? I’m hibernating as well took me ages to get over my last horrible social experience and there’s always the uncertainty that I’ve overreacted. I mean no wonder we get into a mess. Hope the cat is keeping you good company. Honestly I’d rather hang out with my dog than any hoooooman.

Hey @Dimity ,

Sorry to hear things are a bit tough for you. If you feel better with a chat, SANE helpline is open 1800 187 623 (10am-10pm M-F).

For me, I had social anxiety, but I got used to talking on the phone because there was a “barrier” - hence I felt safer. Not sure if this is the same for you.

Hugs,

tyme

Thanks @perspective @tyme . I don't remember when I last spoke to anyone irl. I do get social anxiety and feel churned up about an upcoming family wedding. I had a weekly class- a music group - but started getting flustered sometimes and making mistakes and it was humiliating.

The last goal my psychologist set for me was to do a death clean... it's a bit sad if that's all I can hope to achieve.

I saw an aphorism the other day: "Life doesn't come with a remote. You have to get up and change it yourself." Yeah but it's hard if you don't have a program guide.

Hi dimity

i just googled ‘death clean’ - I thought that sounds bizarre. Strangely enuf I just spent half an hour in my death room where there’s so much junk I’m more likely to fall over and never be seen again. Decluttering is hard for me because being on a pension I tend to be frugal and i think I might use things. I have cupboards full of clothes though I keep wearing the same thing. Have to say though death clean sounds like a good idea but I’m equally keen on leaving my never seen relatives a pig sty cos they’ll complain either way.
as for your upcoming wedding 💒 I know how you feel . I actually had the experience of saying hello to a distant relative at a funeral who denied knowing me. We spent quite a bit of time together as kids and young adults. I knew who he was so I surmised he knew me as well - just the usual BS. I hate memes .