RedHorseSenior Contributor
Struggling
Struggling at the moment.
I'm experiencing a combination of depression and anxiety bringing up all sorts of negative memories. Mistakes I made and opportunities I failed to take up.
It's making me feel unwell, jittery, hopeless, painfully uncomfortable and unable to rest.
I'm not even sure I will post this but at least it gives me something to focus on in the moment.
I know other people have real problems. When I look at my life objectively I feel like a fraud. I'm weak and lazy.
Like why can't I just start doing something meaningful to relieve the anxiety?
Every little thing seems too hard, too much for me to handle.
I'm overwhelmed.
I have so many excuses to NOT participate in everyday life.
Yes I have diagnoses but I also receive ongoing treatment for them.
I should be doing better.
