Shelby1Casual Contributor
OCD pains
Hello everyone
Hope I can find some members who have some form of experience dealing with excessive OCD first hand or dealing with others who have OCD and anxiety issues.
I have experienced first hand OCD since I was a young boy, starting out with excessive hand washing and repeating these actions continuously and never satisfied where ultimately I was convinced something bad would happen should not all of my skin be thoroughly cleaned.
At the time I saw councillors and social workers at school, in turn these type of events had passed as I grew older however I realised in my later years the OCD had manifested in other forms - all relating to loss of control and fear of negative outcomes.
Up till recently I have been in relative control of most of these symptoms in my day to day life, I am now 35, still checking doors are locked and gas is off which I associated as general OCD symptoms but since I recently lost my mother to a horrible form of cancer which for 19 months I was her primary caregiver and myself having covid my OCD symptoms have escalated into my work life. I am a skilled individual and am losing confidence in myself to finish physical tasks as I keep rechecking things to the point of exhaustion. I feel so tired of these thoughts and thought pattern. I see a psychologist mainly for grief counselling and I take an anti depressant which I have been on for over 10 years but I feel I’m losing this fight and really struggling. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated 😔
