Self-talk reminders

Hey @Codex1 ,

So great to read your post. I'm glad there's a shift in things - for the better.

I hope to hear more of your progress.

I appreciate you sharing this with the community, because I can see you have thought very deeply about your recovery.

Good on you!

tyme

@tyme my recovery is more of a medical support program to stop my psychiatric issues from deteriorating further. I'm under close medical supervision for a while now, although I'm going to keep requesting it over and over again, for my own safety. But thank you for giving me a different perspective, I respect you for that.

I enjoyed my lunch today. I love baby potatoes with butter, the trays of those that you get from Woollies.
It's good my appetite is back. Now I just have to avoid stressing too much. Now I have to keep any power I've got and not let it go to people who I don't trust. At least I know what I want in my life. Hopefully I stay with Mable now, I should never have left them. Anyway, I'm getting good support workers who know how to treat people with respect. I also like how I didn't get super stressed out today. Good news!!! A slight headache instead of feeling very terrible. And I'm not bedbound because of intense fatigue, or feeling super crook, any more, besides the stupid hayfever allergies which comes and goes. Life is running fairly smoothly. For now. I want it to stay that way for a long time, not just a few months.

It's 2:14 am but I had a very good sleep earlier. So I got up an hour ago and had a good meal to eat. Then I did washing. Got the dishes done. I prefer to do my housework during the evening as daytime is full of phone calls, books, emails, a rest and a nap, socialising etc. So I don't want any chores to have to do during the day unless it's necessary, like spilling something or have extra dishes by lunch time.<br>I'm sure my sporadic routines with even out. I've only just taken my new medication almost two weeks ago so I still have some adjustments to make to it, and possible some medical support changes. I like writing in this space because it keeps me grounded without being stuck with my own thoughts all the time, and I can set my writings in a readable format for an audience, not just me. I don't know why, I like it when people read what I write, maybe it's just a form of moral support which I don't receive when I do private journalling. But this suits me. When I do private journalling, I tend to write without a filter, so later when I read it, it scares me. At least here, I won't write things that will frighten me when I re-read it later.<br>I dealt with another stupid email before coming onto these forums. I had to write one. It's done now. Now I can just leave the NDIS stress alone! (Sigh) I am so glad I can honestly forget about it. I can deal witto noth written and spoken communications, what I can't deal with is stress brought on by expectations being piled onto my shoulders because I'm expected to prove everything about myself no matter how much evidence I provide. At least I don't have to shoulder this stupid burden any more so I won't cry and sob as much any more. I shouldn't have to put up with a horrible eating disorder flareup for a long time now either, which is good. I can understand losing my appetite for short periods because of physical illness due to a viral infection. But when it just happens along with a lot of other physical and mental health symptoms, it freaks me out because I don't know how long it'll take for me to recover, nor how severe my flareup will become. I guess this is another crappy discussion I'll need to have with the doctors next Monday as they've seen what I'm like and we have to avoid another flareup as I'll get chronically worse as I get older if we don't fix this issue now. At least I have support workers who can help me properly and they treat me like a human being instead of trash. Nobody likes to be treated in a trashy way, so I'm happy to note that my new support people are very kind and compassionate towards me.