@Glisten thanks my dear Tomaatti, or rather, kiitos (thanks). Pronounced "key toss"
I think the worst part was this friend and I have had some amazing in depth conversations and I had hoped I could have shared with her what happened to make me feel the way I do. The whole email stemmed from my comment of saying that my Goddaughter would be better off without her manipulative mother. No, these are negative comments and negativity is of Satan so not only was I reminded of Biblical tenets that I knew, studied and taught, I was also given a lecture about how I have let Satan rule what comes from my mouth. I know as a non Christian this will sound ludicrous to you. To me, a person who had unshakeable faith until ex friend destroyed that, it was like condemning me to hell.
I wrote back and told her how hurt I was by her words, how my faith was still shaky and I'd considered ending things (trying not to upset anyone here but I'm sure you understand what I mean) at one point.
She replied with the obligatory apology and to take care. No do you want to talk, shall we catch up and share.
I was feeling really good, I had re-established my relationship with God and had been faithful each morning with my Bible study. This morning I considered not doing it.
I've believed all my life and attended church most of my life. I was a Sunday school teacher for several years. To have 2 Christian "friends" pretty much tell me that I am not a Christian shattered me. To have a Christian ex friend spread lies and horrible tales about me was awful and I still don't know who I can trust when it comes to mutual friends.
Then "friend" 3 comes along and gives me chapter and verse about negative words about others to the point where I thought, what's the point God? And for the first time in my life I actually had doubts about the existence of God.
Oh it must be wonderful to be all Jesus-y and have a joyful life with all your goals met and exceeded.
