apologies everyone for more notifications
edited post as I usually do
Hello @Clawde
How are you my friend?
I hope that you are managing still as I know you had time away from the forums to look after yourself.
That is not easy to do when we want to still be in touch with our forum friends.
It takes great strength to put ourselves first in our lives where we have been in the background for as long as we can remember for whatever reasons exclusive to our own experiences.
Taking time out to catch our breath and survive is putting ourselves first.
This is not a selfish act either.
I know that you are aware of all of this already.
You are very astute dear Clawde.
I just wanted to remind you
just in case you are similar to me and forget all of the above when life has it's periods of feeling overwhelming.
I am very good at writing these words to others.
I try to remind myself when I am writing them.
I need to remind myself though over and over.
It is not easy to just suddenly change patterned behaviours of a lifetime.
This is where I struggle.
Now I have written far too much.
I sincerely care about you Clawde.
Also this time of year affects me intensely as much as I try to put on brave faces and smiles.
No pressure to reply if you are not up to it.
I have been in a place where I just could not find the words for sometime now.
I am back here fleetingly at the moment.
Today is not a good day so I hope that I make sense.
Thinking of you and sending you warmest wishes of love
Sophia 1
ps hello to all of your other friends on here also. @TAB @Emelia8 @Shaz51 @Eve7
(these are in my drop down box) along with everyone else.