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I am feeling suicidal like it is realistically the only option i have left to escape this hell except that i dont want to act on it or do anything i just feel horrible and like i should do it but i dont want to do it. and idk where that leaves me like i have such conflicting thoughts on the matter it would be much easier if i felt one way or the other but i dont and i dont know what to do with myself. like i dont think i am unsafe because i dont plan to do anything but it is very uncomfortable just having to sit and let the thoughts swim around in my head nagging at me. does this happen to anyone else? how do you deal with it?
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Eden1919Senior Contributor
Re: TW suicidal but don't want to act on it
@Jynx I have tried doing that too and it isn’t helping either. I tend to avoid phone services because they often make me feel worse than before I spoke to them.
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JynxModerator
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That is fair enough @Eden1919 . I hope this storm passes for you soon. We are all here alongside you
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CrazyChickSenior Contributor
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I really understand what you are going through with the never-ending crying and exhaustion. I hope you get some relief soon and either can distract yourself with something like watching a movie, or become so exhausted that you get some sleep.
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Unknown userMember
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Hey @Eden1919
Just checking in on how you're doing today? Have you been able to find some relief? Were you able to reach out to anyone for support?
I was going to say something abou how I was so impressed by your strength and resilience but I know I hate it when people call me those things.haha
Sitting in this with you, - periwinklepixie
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Eden1919Senior Contributor
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thanks all, @Former-Member today has not been good at all I am exhausted and didn’t sleep last night and I feel like I am about to start crying again and everything is just too much the thoughts just keep getting worse and worse but no one knows about them not like anyone can actually help anyway so I am not going to bother anyone else about it I will just have to see if I survive this or not.
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Eden1919Senior Contributor
Re: TW suicidal but don't want to act on it
I dont feel ok today and no one seems to understand and i am so exhausted and tomorrow is a big day where i have to pretend to be happy all day and i just dont know if i can do it. i want to scream everything is too much and i cant stand it all much longer.
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Unknown userMember
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How did you go from that last post? I too have bad streaks I'm sure many of us do. You said you don't like phone services but sometimes they can help. At least hopefully posting here to people that understand better might help.
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