Concerned about my behaviour

I have ruined a friendship with my obsessive behaviour and I'm feeling very regretful and sad about it.

I don't fully understand my behaviour. This has only happened twice before in my life. I spoke to my therapist about it tonight.

I feel so awful about what happened. I have ruined a friendship with someone I care about.

I think I'm overly sensitive to rejection and I have abandonement issues. It's like I become compulsive and I don't listen to the other person or respect their needs or boundaries. I can't stop my obsessive behaviour and I push the other person away.

I think I got too close to the other person too fast. I was too open with them and I made myself vulnerable. I think I need to be more careful with taking care of myself and being aware of other people's boundaries.

It took me such a long time to understand the impact of my behaviour on the other person. I feel so bad about my behaviour.

I feel so sad about it and I'm worried that I won't be able to have relationships with people.

Maybe I have obsessive compulsive disorder, but this has only happened twice before so I don't know.