I think I am starting to become invisible

I'm sorry @Eden1919 that sounds stressful and disconcerting in the extreme.

Sometimes when I start of doubt myself and what's really going onI lie on the ground, floor, yoga mat to try and get a sense of stability and grounding. I also try and rely on my senses more than my thoughts. My thoughts can be less reliable than my senses sometimes.

@frog I am laying on my bed hiding under a blanket at the moment everything looks funny so I am trying to hide. I am just I think I am disappearing slowly and also there is something new that has been watching me and idk I just feel really unsettled and scared. And there is a device in my head and they keep taking my thoughts out and trying to make me go to sleep so they can take me somewhere else.

Hi @Eden1919 ,

Glad you are here and getting support from our lovely community and reaching out and doing what you can to stay safe - I'm just checking in and wondering if there is someone it might be helpful to call out to for a chat or anyone with you that can assist or if there's anything you are needing in terms of a safety plan or measure at the moment?

Here to support you always and hoping you are okay, with the upmost care and gratitude,

Otter

@Otter I am not sure what would help at the moment i tried talking to a family member but they did most of the talking and i couldnt tell them what was going on. i dont have anyone with me at the moment. i am trying to distract myself but it is hard. i am still feeling really scared about everything and idk what to do but i am trying really hard to be ok.

Hi there @Eden1919, I've taken over from Otter this evening. Sorry the phone call wasn't helpful. I can see you're trying your absolute best today while sitting with a lot of fear. Have you been able to eat something or have a bath/shower? Sometimes caring for our basic needs can be helpful.

Here with you,

Sphinxly.

I have been having a hard time doing those things @Former-Member idk it is just too hard at the moment.

So sorry it's so hard today @Eden1919. Right here with you. What do you normally do when it gets to this point? Do you reach out for professional help?

What have you been able to do today? Also totally ok if you were in bed all day 🧡

@Former-Member I dont know what to do anymore. i think i am just going to hide under my blankets and cry for a while. i really havent done anything today.

Staying in bed and giving yourself permission to cry is ok @Eden1919.

If things feel worse remember to reach out to a crisis line.

You're not alone tonight. I'll be thinking of you 🧡

@Former-Member I tried a helpline eairler but they made me feel a lot worse and i am not doing that again.