I'm done.

I've been really struggling this week.
I ended up in hospital every day since Monday for either suicide or severe self harm, I was even tazored on Wednesday because I self harmed in front of police.

Cops took me to hospital today coz there was a welfare check coz Im suicidal only to be told to go home, stop presenting and find something else to do. They said I can only be treated in the community but community teams or private mental health organisations won't take me on or accept my referrals,

so yeh.
What are you supposed to do when the people and services supposed to help won't help. It's just made me more hopeless and suicidal too. Like I gave up and then everyone decided they would give up on me too. Like seriously what is the point anymore.

I'm safe enough for now. I'm just going to go to bed. But yeh. I'm done, so Fing done.