I'm done.

Hello @The-red-centaur I'm new here and still finding my way around.

I want you to know your not alone and to never give up! Giving in or surrendering is not the same as giving up it's more f an action like reaching out or speaking up which is what you are doing. It pained me to her of your traumatic experiences with the Police and the pain and suffering you are going through. I want to help you feel supported. My lived experience is Bipolar 1 and don't have the lived knowledge to speak with you about what your dealing with. So I looked up a thread in here of people who do have similar experiences as you. It well worth you having a look.

I really hope this takes you to the conversation.

If not go to resources and type in the search bar...self harm XX

https://mindaustralia.saneforums.org/t5/Our-stories/I-can-t-stop-self-harming/m-p/1053861#M217116

Oh Red! @The-red-centaur Am so very sorry you've fallen through a gap in services and they won't help you 😞 That is so very wrong.

I wish there was an answer...I just want to wrap you up in a hug (virtual) and rock you 💔 💙

I'm sorry things have been so difficult @The-red-centaur the system is so broken. And it's really sad how people like you... and me and many others slip through the gaps and don't get the help that we need. What you have experienced is very similar to the many times I have been taken to hospital. I get discharged to the community and then they are hopeless. They won't take me on either. Just a couple of phone calls and then they say goodbye too.
I hope someone is able to help you soon @The-red-centaur it's exhausting cycling through this vicious cycle. Do you have any private therapists? a gp? Someone?

Dear @The-red-centaur

I'm so sorry 😔

Just please know that none of us have given up on you 🙏💕

Sending you love by the bucket loads 💕

Hang in there!

I'm so sorry you are going through a rough time. Years ago I was suicidal but made a pack with myself never to do anything until I had a night's sleep. Usually the next day I felt better. At least not worse. Don't act on impulse. No matter how bad you feel now things do get better. It took me a while to find the right medication to help but I did and the world is no longer black.

@The-red-centaur wish that I could say or do something to make a difference for you Centaur. I'm sorry it's continued to be such a difficult road ahead for you. You don't deserve it. You deserve better than this my friend

HI... Thank you for sharing so honestly because you're helping others with your journey. I can see you are suffering. This is a difficult time... Unprecedented... And it is a tough time to get help with anything... But help is there. I saw how people I loved did not get the help they needed and fell through the cracks because services are stretched to the limits due to coronavirus. You are a precious human life...never give into emotions which change like the weather. If you are feeling good you won't think to self harm... So basing decisions on emotions is like being on a rollercoaster. That's how it felt to me. I got off the rollercoaster and accepted there is suffering and sorrow in life but also joy in walking in the park... Helping my parent... Trying to help my child. If I could help you too I hope I can. You are precious to this world. Keep a journal of moments you are happy and read it when you are not happy. It will remind you this too shall pass. Hugs and support.

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@The-red-centaur wrote:
So today was first day in a week I didn't try to hurt myself. It was hard, but yeh. Little steps, hey.

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Well done, @The-red-centaur 🙂 Yay!

Woot woot, look at you go @The-red-centaur 🙏✔️👍💕