New on here - CPTSD, BPD, Anxiety, Depression. I really need some support

@Ashleigh425

I am glad that you at least have a mhcp with ongoing counselling - that is better than nothing

Meggle

@Ashleigh425

Remember you promised to love each other?

That was thru thick and thin. If it was your partner experiencing difficulty you would be there for them

Meggle.

@Ashleigh425

It's really easy to get caught up in our own feelings of self hate/loathing and worthlessness

Meggle

@Ashleigh425

A letter is a great idea. Good luck. I am glad that you are feeling a bit better.

All the best

Meggle

Hello @LoveandHope that's a great name.

Welcome to the forum. You definitely posted in the right place.

It took me a while to navigate eg use @ to tag someone, and look for responses to threads you're in under New in the top right hand corner.

I'm sorry you feel so alone. I know what that feels like.

Sometimes people like to say three things about themselves by way of introduction and then other people can join in and hopefully point you to useful threads. Take care.

Hi @LoveandHope @Ashleigh425

Firstly welcome to the forums. I hope you find the support you are looking for here.

Hope you both have good days today 💜

I still really know how to find my way around here.

im so sorry to hear you are also struggling with similar. It's a bit like that here too. What's happening with your relationship? Just if you want to share. I've just had the biggest loss happen and still can't believe it's happened. Thought it would be the last person who would do this to me. This person meant so much for me. ( probably too much ) The last event I'm still recovering from and has kept me in bed for 2 yrs. my heart couldn't take anymore- I put my trust in this recent person with some hope. But she's broken me, given up, pulled out and hurt me in so many ways- but doesn't seem to think she has or want to hear or work through it. It's a massive trigger and I've regressed to no function at all, traumatised , triggered, depressed and just gut renched. Hardest part is the fact that it's impacted me so much - has pullled all hope from me. I feel to blame like I've ruined this. Or maybe she just didn't care like I thought . It's bought up so much...the fact she knows I've responded with so much devastation - she's pulled right out and cut ties..leaving me hanging...and that's triggered so much. I feel like a failure that I can't cope and feel so impacted. I most likely had an attachment. This person was the most kindest, Christian , loving and encouraging person. I don't understand. I just wish she'd be here and understand what's happening and listen to me. But I know it's over abd I don't think I'm ever going to get ove this. The pain I feel is undescribable.

I know I sound over the top...just can't help or stop how I feel and how my body and heart have been triggered.

sorry to rant ...

Thanks @Oaktree

I don't know what my diagnosis is really. I've been thrown around the system and traumatised by it. Not listened to, labelled. I just have no trust left, no hope & no self esteem. The one thing that was helping me to keep fighting just left & really hurt me so deeply . I'm left traumatised and not understood, alone and like a complete failure.