My girl

Hey Forum Friends. So my girl turns 27 tomorrow. No contact from her since August last year apart from my visit to her in hospital where she did not recognise me. Although I did receive a txt last week, which I was excited to receive until I read it. Money, needed money, that's all, nothing more 😞 Her team tell me she was paid her DSP two days so I fear she's up to her old habits again. I was going to drive the 6 hours to visit but the fear of what I will be confronted with has had me change my mind. Now the guilt of that decision is rampant but I know seeing her in the unkept state she's in will break my heart all over again and from past experiences, so many, I know in my heart it wont, I can't, change what is. Her birthday present remains uncollected from her local post office despite my txts to her that it is there for her. I've lost her to her illness and addictions but how to let go? So many memories of happier days when she was my little girl so tomorrow I'll simply try to focus on those simple happy times. When and how do I draw the line of trying to make contact or am I putting myself through this suffering to no avail? A very sad mumma at present.