Where to start

Ok. Well I'm sure it's rather common here but every day feels like a day of more torment.

from majestic depression, ptsd, guilt, ect oh and the physical manifestations of the constant feeling of being kicked, yes imagine someone kicking you all day, but you can't see them.

iv had that for 5 years 😔

it drives me crazy to the point of total insanity.

I'm at wits ends.

people feel like aliens from another planet to me.

every thing feels like a personal attack, every thing seams to be a trigger point for the ptsd.

medication has been a nightmare. So that's not an option, well not after the antipsychotic medication after everything that happened.

I'm still not sure how I survived but somehow I am.🤷‍♀️ So thanks for the hospital staff.
basicly I think there is a huge group of people that want to help but I feel like they hate me and w as t to hurt me. Pretty hard for lasting friendships and life in general.

I'm totally lost , I just want the things I did as a child back. Just a simple housewife that feels safe.

unfortunately this is far from my reality.

well that's enough of the poor me. But the concrete I keep getting told to eat might become something I berry myself in instead 😔

this line has been really good and the girls have been awesome on the calls . So thank you I'm sure you are saving lives .

keep up the good work