ideas for what to do when unable to talk to someone for a length of time

Regret is a hard thing when it comes to relationships,you where so patient and gave more chances than I deserve,you havnt spoken to me in 3 days and Im already so wound up yeah sure maybe its all in my head,but I still should have said yes straight away and not left you wondering,yeah maybe your just busy or whatever but my emotions are hard to handle at the moment so hard to handle,whats gonna happen if I do see you again gosh the way Im going Ill turn into a puddle I dont expect you to understand,I just need to tell you my truth thats all,all you wanted me to do was let you love me,hug me and I couldnt even let you do that often enough,I was happier after I got to meet you but maybe youll never know that,and now I feel meloncolly and cold,all cause I was to scared to tell you yes,to scared to tell you I wanted you,so naturally you would have thought I didnt ,how many times did I push your hands away and how many times where you stuck listening to me complain,I miss you,I need you but you most likely felt taken for granted Im sorry for being a dissapointment I should have showed you the effort you deserved in return for all your effort

thankfully the person decided to talk to me so things are improoved and calmer tonight