ThumbalinaCasual Contributor
Hi Everyone, thanks for having me
It's taken me awhile to post as honestly I've joined a few groups and I perceive it always goes badly. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, GAD, Anxiety attacks, suicide ideation and self harm. I have a deep distrust in most, although strangely will fly to the aid of those when needed, I always forget my life jacket but I guess. My main distrust is with govt although I was a loyal employee for many years.
I find it hard to fit in anywhere honestly, life honestly makes me extremely sad. It would be nice but to connect with someone as in the last 18 months I've alienated all of my friends, have got my mother just about to swear on the bible not to tell the rest of extended family and my poor daughters life must be crap having me as their mother.
Of course as many of you know mental illness also holds so much stigma, we are rarely believed or in my case I had to get well to their schedule and it didn't happen. I had a period where I did look like I was improving then I fell and now I have been left with no support from anyone honestly, it's hard to not start thinking in terms of conspiracy theories in between blaming yourself, thinking I never helped those people to begin with I wouldn't be here. I know this is all very abstract, but that is how the paranoia is voiced in me these days.
Would like to chat but if can put up with innuendo or I'm an excellent listener. 🙂
