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What’s next?

Bellarose75Senior Contributor17 Mar 2021, 7:52 am AEDT

What’s next?

Sitting here listening to the bird noises (I would like to say bird song but there is too many different sounds) As I said in my getting start post, I have hit rock bottom and slipped into a crack and it has me wondering what now! I know the only way is up (as I sing that one line from a song I can't remember the rest of the words too) In my last session I finally got it, the only hand that can pull me out is my own and that scares me due to the lack of faith, well the lack of anything in myself to succeed.

So here I am, stripped raw not a memory left unexplored (that I am aware of) no secrets hidden. Now I get to start again, putting it all back together bit by bit. I know there will be lots of times I may fall backwards but I am hoping that I won't get stuck there.

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Bellarose75Senior Contributor10 Apr 2021, 11:56 am AEST

Re: What’s next?

Dearest Mel, thank you so much for checking in and updating us with what is happening for you. I am sorry to hear it has come to this point for you. Your birthgiver has so much to answer for, not only what she put you and your brother through in your childhood but also her continued abuse of you. She should be understanding and supportive not mentally and emotionally abusing you still. I won't prented that it doesn't concern me that you have chosen to stop all mental health services, I know you are a strong woman and can handle what life throws your way but we need help at some point. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for keeping your promise, I am hoping that this promise is enough to keep you safe. Taking yourself away from this world is only giving them the ultimate power and control, loads of therapy has finally gotten me to understand this. Please keep yourself safe for you and your boys. Love you 3000 @Lee82

@Anastasia @Bunniekins @Appleblossom @Eve7 @Emelia8 @outlander @Sans911 @Zoe7 @Snowie sending you all love and light. Remember all of you are important, beautiful and caring souls. I am enternally greatful for having meant you all.