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Let's talk DID and dissociation

Let's talk DID and dissociation

Hello all

@Former-Member, @Bellarose75, @BraveOne, @Nyx, @Fluttershy1, @Maggie, @Grace20212, @NoOne, @MySunrise, @Unlonely1, @destructive, @Lemonjuice and we are sure there are others who have DID or dissociation disorders but we haven't interacted with them so feel free to add others we missed.

We noticed that there is a lot of threads popping up about DID and decided that maybe having a thread we can all chat on and ask questions and give advice to each other would be good.

We thought we would start off by explaing who we are.

We call ourselves the dragon system.

Host/main/core goes by our username due to guidelines but the rest of us are happy to say our names it also helps people know who's responding.

Here is a list of all of us that we as a working system is aware of.

So I'm going to split it up into 3 groups, littles (0-10), middles (11-17) and bigs (18+).

So my littles are :

Kelly, 4, mute and trauma holder, Eshy, main

Sarah, 6, main

Strudle, 5, wolf shapeshifter, main

Brandon

Bianca

Brittney, 7, the BBB triplets

Sienna, 8, prefers CC

Dana, 4, trauma holder, AP

Leana, 6, trauma holder, AP

Cameron, 8, trauma holder

Kelsey, 5, trauma holder

Uunala, 4, trauma holder, Eshy

Stacey, 10

Tessa, 9, FS Trauma holder

My middles are:

Steph, 15, sporty, gender fluid

Daisy, 13, Artistic

Macey, 12, smart, Eshy

Repunzel, 16/17, Fictive

Elsie, 17, littles helper

Erin, 15, trauma holder, Sh, main

Iris, 11, positive empath, littles caretaker, main

Chloe, 14, littles caretaker, clean freak (possibly ocd)

Mermaid Princess, 15/17, unknown language

Zayella, 15, sad/grief empath, inner world protector

Casey, 13, troublesome, sh

Evie, 15/16, fictive

My bigs are:

Sapphire,18, wolf shapeshifter, system protector, main

Harmony, 30, protector, main

Honey, 19, sexual

Grant, age Slider, 18-25,

Lana, 20, negative empath

Holly, age unknown, demon, system persecutor, is a main but currently locked away

Twilight, age unknown, dragon, gatekeeper

We know not all people with DID have an inner world but we do. Host created inner world as an escape when she was 9 and it has become a major part of our system. For anyone wondering twilights role as gatekeeper is literally that our inner world is surrounded by a brick wall and has a large gate outside that is a giant Forrest and twilight keeps the bad out. Holly came before twilight did so it's probably the only reason she made it in.

We also have C-PTSD, anxiety, depression, social anxiety, and panic disorder. Host is severe asthmatic as well which we suppose makes us all asthmatic.

Anyway hope you like the idea of this thread and we are happy to chat anytime but we do apologize if we don't always answer straight away

Thanks

Harmony/babydragon

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Re: Let's talk DID and dissociation hi

Hi everyone,

We are okay. Lots of family stuff going on which keeps us out of our head, out of the inner world, because life is so busy.

Interestingly, because I am focusing on looking after this body and giving self compassion and self care to as many as I can, it has been not as loud inside.

I think some of us are working well together at the moment with trying to look after the family stuff. It makes me wonder if it means I'm progressing with healing and how long will it last.

I can definitely say that being kind to us is helpful.

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Hi all. Hope you are doing okay.

I haven't been online much for a while but I'm triggered today by the fact I'm hosting a birthday party for one of my family members.

I just need to vent a little so maybe I can actually function. Currently I'm paralysed with fear that will be coming from a some little ones inside who has relational abuse trauma from several family members.
I know I could work through it but my household is here and it's challenging to say the least. And triggered fear brings out anger and I keep getting cross with my partner.

I wonder what others do to push through when there are obstacles once triggered?

I've actually asked them to go out for a couple of hours. I know that triples the jobs needed to be done but I can't do anything while they are here. To work through this and continue to remain present, I need to be free to move about the house and talk through the issue aloud.

Why oh why do I continue to say yes to things too hard for me? And why do I go overboard still trying to win approval from someone who will never change?

Thanks for the chance to let this out.

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Hi @MySunrise @sorry I'm just seeing this. Not sure when the party is but hope you're feeling a little better. I don't have any solutions but can identify with getting myself sucked into doing thing that are overwhelming and/or that I don't really want to. I think you're on the right track with asking for things that will just help you get it done like sending the family out.

@Former-Member @Bellarose75 @Unlonely1 how are you all? Been thinking of you all.

im having a very rough time with therapy. She is really pushing and I'm finding it very overwhelming and I don't think she gets how hard it is. I feel so sad because I feel like I've found someone who really wants to help and hasn't put me in too hard basket but not sure I can sustain this without doing bad things or maybe even something really bad. I'm not that way right now but so scared of that.

She said she thinks I've 'switched' some times in session but she didn't realise at the time so today she kept asking if it was a different part and I hated it. Made me sick. Made my head mad. Does/would this bother anyone else or am I overreacting?

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Just dropped by to say hello, I am not here much at the moment everything is so draining. Hope everyone is safe and as ok as they can be. @destructive @Former-Member @MySunrise @Unlonely1

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Re: Let's talk DID and dissociation hi

I'm real bad and do t know how to cope with all this. Just feel like things are never going to get better. Feel like my psychologist doesn't want to see me anymore, just isn't directly saying so and turns out a therapist like 7 years ago thought I had DID and never said anything. I don't get enough help because I can't talk and I can't afford it. People think because I have a job I'm less in need in less pain or something.

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Hey. I've been in hiding (avoidance). @destructive You posted this a while ago. I hope you are okay. I hope you have been able to ask your therapist if she still wants to help you, even though that would be so hard to do.
I had to do that recently and it was so hard. I just came right out and said it. She actually hadn't thought about it. I think it's my rejection issues that think people don't want to be around me.
I hope things are working out okay

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Hi @MySunrise @how are you?
I kinda did, not ask so much but just be an awful needy mess and it's obvious that I worry about that so she says often she won't quit on me but not always sure. I feel like she's more thoughtful in what she does than others, as in I know she's sought supervision when things didn't go well. That was a good sign I think. I actually didn't take it as she couldn't handle me but more that she cared enough to try figure out how to do it better. Weird.

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@destructive just want to let you know when I was struggling you gave me inspiration to keep going. I bet I'm not to only one

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@MySunrise Don't know if you just saw my previous reply or you have a sixth sense because tonight I am having some bad thoughts. I'm so tired!

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