Feeling desperate and distraught

Hi @PlantLover

It sounds extremely stressful and anxiety provoking.

I am sorry that nothing seems to be working for you and that no professionals seem to have the answer for you either.

It sounds like you have already tried so much with no luck.

Here with you hun 💜

@PlantLover Hey PlantLover can I ask if you feel your insomnia is due to you going off the medications?

hey, chance you could be pregnant (not making any assumptions on gender)?

are you having difficulties with appetite and smells?

I really feel for you. I am wondering if it might be a possibility to start looking at other trials done around the world for this issue. I think there would be other people with this issue. Perhaps a very low percentage, but nevertheless others.

Also have you tried searching for a group of people, whether it be Facebook or other online forums that aslo deal with your issues you have? The support can be very comforting and you never know, there might also be some solutions to your problem.

I wish for you it gets solved and it no longer continues.

What a great idea, thank you. I tried looking online for insomnia forums with no luck. But there may be groups of Facebook! I'll have a look today. Thank you!

Hello @Spag that was one of the first things I checked. But the two home tests I took were negative and so was my blood test. Yes loss of appetite. I'm losing weight from not eating enough/vomiting. Smells are the same, no difference there.

Yes @Bunniekins it definitely is. I knew there was a strong chance of my insomnia coming back once I was off my meds. That's why I made sure I worked on sleep hygiene with my psychologist a couple of months before stopping the meds. The medication I was on was for my mental health and my sleep.
My insomnia started when I was 15. I was hospitalised for 6 months with anorexia nervosa. The insomnia started when I was at my worst. When my body was shutting down. It was my bodies way of trying to keep me alive. But even as I recovered and ate well it never went away, it stuck around. It's like my brain never switched off from 'if you sleep you die' mode. The psychiatrist explained it to me as my body was worried if I went to sleep I wouldn't wake back up again. And that my body used less energy laying still in a hospital bed staring at the ceiling rather than dreaming. That's what started it, we just don't know why It's continuing. We think maybe something biological happened when I was really sick with the anorexia

Thanks @Snowie

@PlantLover Hmmm interesting. Can I ask what mi you have? Reason I am asking is that I would love to be med free but my pdoc is refusing saying I would go psychotic and it would be worse than before I have schitzo affective although another pdoc says I have bipolar I I also suffer from post traumatic stress trauma.

My pdoc actually said I would end up on depot injections! Love peaxx

Apparently im not good with abbreviations 🙊

What's mi? I'm guessing your asking for my diagnoses? My current are anxiety, BPD, PTSD and insomnia. I was started on some more mild sleep medications but they were doing nothing for me. I asked for something stronger but the psychiatrist didn't want to give me it because apparently It's extremely addictive. After about 20 minutes of arguing my case and tears I talked him into giving me the script for the strong sleep medication that was meant to knock me out for 12 hours. But instead it had the opposite affect and I was wide awake, euphoric and 'high'. I was in a really weird mood.