General grumblings..

Life kind of sucks today.

I had work last night.

My ex wasn't there, and now I'm a little worried for her. It usually hurts seeing her, because it reminds me of how alone I am, but I hope she's in tonight. The thing is, I don't know if she would appreciate me caring about her, so I don't know why I still do.

I had to wake up after three hours of sleep that morning.

My brother said he was bored in hospital, so my sister sent me an hour away to go and visit him. When I got there, he was like "sorry, that was [my sister]'s decision" LOL. It was good seeing him, but I meant to go and pick up a big purchase and walk around the city today.. or SLEEP! .

When I got back into town, I went to get a drink and the waitress was a little rude to me today.

I go there almost every day, and usually she's very happy to see me, but she kind of looked straight through me this time. I kind of fumbled LOL. I asked whether they had any of the amazing Egyptian Iced Tea they do.

They usually keep it in the cooler behind the bar. Turns out it was in the fridge right in front me, and I could have looked for it myself! That made me look pretty silly.

Sadly, though, when I said goodbye, she didn't say anything.

I lost another bet on the NFL.

I bet on the Raiders to win by three or more, and they lost in overtime, to a team with a terrible record and a history of "choking". I have such bad luck; there was a very unlikely upset last week too.

I have lost $60 in three weeks.. I should probably stop. There is no such thing as a lock anymore LOL. It just sums up my fortunes in life more generally, though.

I need a hug.