My Mosaic

I’m glad you knew what you needed yesterday @Snowie and took some time out, sorry that it was because you were feeling overwhelmed though. Is today a bit better??

yeah dog was excited to see my mum. Lots of kisses.
mum spent some time at the queen vic markets yesterday she got me some goodies.
mum wants to know if we are all gonna go down in the chrissy holidays. I can’t even think ahead of the next couple of days…. It stresses me out planning that far ahead.
just feeling the spiral going faster and deeper. And I just don’t care

No not really @Bow

I find it hard to plan ahead too hon. I just feel like it is hard enough to look a few days in advance.

I'm sorry the spiral is happening. It's tough when we see it happening and are unable to stop it.

When do you next see your supports?

@Snowie I’ll see my support worker in the morning. She called this afternoon, I’d see her at arts and craft tomorrow arvo, my gp appointment Wednesday and then we organised a home visit for Thursday. I told her I’d had a rough few days and she asked a heap of questions around what that looked like. We finished the call. But then she called me back asking about my bloods. I’m suppose to have them Tuesday and Fridays. I told her I didn’t go on Friday, so she is gonna come with me tomorrow morning to make sure I go.

I see my CM Thursday morning and pdoc Friday.

Glad you have got your arts and crafts class to look forward too @Bow

Your support worker sounds like she has concerns for you hon. Hopefully you can get your bloods done tomorrow with her support.

I know you haven't got the best relationship with you CM. How does it feel seeing your pdoc on Friday?

Yeah I think so @Snowie especially after what I told her I had been struggling with the last couple of days. She asked if I felt safe now that mum was home and I said no.

I hope we do something more than just colouring in again tomorrow for arts and craft.

my pdoc… it’s always an anxiety provoking appointment and my support worker is not available to come, I have someone else coming in her place though but it’s not the same. I’d really like her to put me back on my flashback and nightmare meds, but I doubt she will. It’s coming up to that time of the year and I’m already not coping. Last night was really bad. I wonder if my CM will make the effort to attend my appointment…

I find this time of year hard too, anniversaries coming up...

Is there a reason why you can't go back on your meds @Bow?

I'm sorry last night was bad and you don't feel safe. Is there anything we can do to help?

Sorry to hear you're not feeling safe @Bow - here for you hun 💜

It sucks eh @Snowie such a joyful time of the year and I just wanna disappear under a rock.

yeah, there is a reason she’s said in the past she won’t put me back on them. I’ve used them inappropriately in the past basically.

don’t think there’s much anyone can do, but just bring here is reassuring

That's hard about the meds @Bow Sometimes what is helpful to us can be the most damaging too.

I try and make this time of the year joyful but it is hard, especially when you are around others.

Does D love xmas?