My Mosaic

You're not wasting their time @Bow they are there to help you and support you. It is times like this that we need our supports more then ever.

Is there someone you could ring or email?

Am happy to chat/sit with you.

I'm sorry about your ed being loud.

I’m sorry about your ED @Bow. I hear how hard it is.

You are not wasting your supports time. As @Snowie said, that’s what they are there for.

Has the support worker been around yet?

Im here for you too, for whatever you need.

Thanks @Snowie @Captain24

But what about when you work against your supports? Purposely do… nevermind. Should shut up.

@Captain24 the support worker came around earlier this afternoon. She didn’t stay long. But we talked about our travels last year cause she went overseas too. Guess in a way it was nice to just talk about something else and she wouldn’t really understand my struggles anyways.

I did manage to get myself in the shower this afternoon. It had been way too long 🫣

no one to call or email @Snowie

I am concerned about facing the weekend.

I don't think it can be classed as working against our supports @Bow I think we just do what we've got to do to get through the day/hours. There are things that my psych has suggested which I just haven't done. It's not that I don't want to do them, but just the thought raises my anxiety. The I get depressed and angry with myself for not doing those things. It is a vicious circle.

I think it is a lot more complex then just not doing what they say. So much else goes into our thoughts/decisions.

Maybe schedule some things you can do on the weekend, maybe with D. Something to look forward to.

I can understand the concern, especially when our supports are not there. Is there anyone that will check in on you over the weekend?

It is complex @Snowie real complex. And I think cause my ED has SI components to it, it makes it more difficult. (I am currently safe. ) EDs are so secretive. I tell my supports most things, but there are things that I don’t.

And yeah, I get even more depressed and angry at myself when I can’t do the right thing. And then I want to punish myself.

I might get to finish my Disney Lego castle. Only a few more bags to go. That will be nice.

I will get my usual medication check in calls every afternoon. Depends who it is as to whether I will want to talk. I can always call comm mh. But I don’t wanna raise too many concerns, especially while mums away. Think I will just have to do what I can to survive the weekend.

do you have plans??

I can understand the wanting to punish ourselves @Bow We can be very critical of ourselves at times, well a lot of the time. It is so much more then just black and white. It is very complex as you say.

That will be good if you can finish your lego castle. I'm sure D would love to see it complete. Is she into lego too?

I haven't got much on this weekend. H is away and both kids are working, so time on my own. Not sure if that is a good thing. Got a lot of thoughts ruminating around.

Heya @Bow ,

I'm here if you wanted to continue the conversation from last time when you mentioned that i was intriguing.

I think daughter is itching to get the Lego castle finished. She will beg to do another bag, sits for a minute and then off she goes and leaves me to do it, which is fine, cause it is mine!

She does like Lego, has way too much! Has some really nice sets which are all pulled apart and in multiple crates under her bed with some missing pieces probably! 😩

time to yourself can be good… and sometimes not so good. I’ll have all day to myself tomorrow 9-6. But I have some plans to keep myself busy.
Mum starts her journey home tomorrow night. Overnight on the spirit. Then a day shopping in Melbourne and then the overnight train Sunday night back here.

Love how kids can change to different things so quickly!

D used to have a lot of lego too. She outgrew it so ended up selling it. She does have a few of the flower ones still.

I'm glad you have got some plans for your day alone @Bow

You have done such a good job so far with your mum away. I'm glad she is back soon. I'm sure the dog has missed her!

Hey @tyme maybe an ideal time to continue that converstation, although not sure how my head will go with it